She is my K

I

  At first it was a flow

 Moving through the river of time 

 Without a dream or visible land of future It seemed like i was floating peacefully through Like a fish in a river of which the final destination has already been destinedLike a dead race with only one contender no need to hurry no need to speed up...But then it happened

 She happened 

Everything changed 

She appeared almost out of no where 

Before i knew it i was caught but more free than i had ever been

 Before i knew it it had all been decided

 Another contender or maybe not maybe not interested in the race or river

 But in me ,me the center?

 At first glance it was a perfect reflection of my depths 

 It had only gotten better as time passed it had only gotten sweeter 

The sun was more gentle, the water was cooler ,the wind was kind and every color had its place A dream was born right then and there when she made my heart her own           Love is real

 But ... and theres always a but

 For the sake of balance Of peace and war Of day and nightOf love and hateA storm had come , a storm from the past , destined to follow her perhaps forever 

Overtook her with fear , losing herself

 Losing me

 Or so goes the story in my slightly unhinged mind

 "But i am here" i scream

 "The storm shall do you no harm" i scream

 "I mustnt allow it" i scream 

But the storm is too loud

 But my will ricochets off of her

 How do i hide anger, pain

 How do i not blame her 

I dont know how but i must

 After all i havent read the entire book

 Has the storm consumed her? Even so i see itI see a glimmer... of light that shines with a taste of past I see hope in that bright crack in this solid stormI mustnt give up I must keep going I love herEven if my flesh is torn By the vicious storm. Even through the dence grey clowds even through the storms destructive competence

  A dim light is shone 

 A dim light with a future of a beam surging with power 

  But to unleash this force i must persevere the storm I must be strong for twoI must lend my heart as it had been lent to meI must keep bleeding My tears i will offer as bargainTo get to the center to the eye of the storm 

 The sunrise is close

 Everything will fall into place

 Everything will be ok.