~~~~~Meanwhile with Ciel~~~~~~~
"Where did she run off to? It's been 25 minutes and she still hasn't come back yet." The ocean eyed male worriedly at the doorway. He removed the sheets from his body and got up to look for you. The pitter patter of his bare feet against the cold wood echoed through the hall. He searched every room, but couldn't find you. He went downstairs to look for Sebastian when he suddenly heard a yawn. You were slowly walking down the hall towards the room. He angrily stomped towards you. "(F/n)!! Where have you been I was worried something might have happened to you!" He was always paranoid that someone might break in and take you for a ransom because you were the fiance of Earl Ciel Phantomhive. You looked at him, pecked his lips and bowed. "I'm sorry, but love doesn't worry about me. Besides, what I do is none of your concern." Grabbing his hand you lead him into the room. After seating himself on the bed, the blue haired male grabbed you and pulled you into his lap. He grabbed your cut wrist and you hissed in pain, closing one eye. "(F/n)? Are you alright?" He let you go and you cradled your arm. "I'm fine." You stated. Not believing you he pinned you to the bed and grabbed your arm, rolling up your sleeve. You turned your head away from him and heard him sigh in annoyance. "(F/n) Phantomhive, what the bloody hell is this!?" "Scars and cuts?" You said blankly. You had been doing this for months now. "And why are they on your arm? Why would you hurt yourself like this?! God damn it (F/n) look at me!!" You slowly turned your head and saw his face was red and his eyes were glossy. You had a few tear streaks down the side of your face and your nose was a bright red. Your lower lip quivered as you fought to keep the sobs in. It took all you had to speak. "B-because I'm scared. Ciel, I know I act happy. I know I pretend like everything's alright b-but i-its not. It's really n-not. I'm terrified that one day you'll leave me like my parents did. Like the rest of my family did. I can't go out without being insulted. Without getting hurt because people think I'm a weak girl who's taken Lizzy from you for my own benefits." You lifted your shirt to show multiple bruises and cuts on your skin. "I-I don't wanna do it anymore. Ever since my parents left me...and since..my sister.." You let more tears escape down your skin. "She never deserved it. It should have been me. I should have died not her...I don't deserve such wonderful people like you. I never did. I've done things I regret and I don't want to do it anymore, I don't even know what you see in me. I'm not pretty, or the best fiance. If you're angry and want me gone...I understand." You sobbed and let everything out. Ciel pulled you close to his chest and let you cry. "Love me.You're beautiful. You're gorgeous. Your personality is what I love most. I know that you feel bad and I know you just wanted to avenge your sister, it's what older siblings do. I'm sorry about what your parents did to you and I'm sorry I can't be here more to protect you but Lizzy understood that I love you. She was happy to let me be with you. And what you did in the past is the past. Right now is all that matters, and right now we are going to lie in bed and snuggle. So wipe your tears, lift your chin, look at me. It's alright. I love you." He held your face in his hands, using his thumbs to wipe away your tears. "Y-you mean it?" Your eyes were wide and glistening. "Every word." He whispered. Gently, he pressed his lips to yours. "I love you, Ciel. You're my everything..."
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so this is the last part of this book let me know if you want a Sebastian or Alois one anyways thanks for reading bye
