Today was good at first. I was being healthy, and I only had a granola bar for breakfast. But then I hinged, and I kinda hate myself for it. I didn't look at very much thinspo maybe that's why I binged. And then, they got sad and scared. Someone got upset over me... And they want their ex back, who is kind of an asshole. He wasn't very nice to anyone. He didn't make them happy. They deserve a lot better. I'm not saying they deserve me cause I'm almost worse, but at least I know that they deserve to be treated like the king they are. I really love them, I just wish the feeling was mutual.. But I'm not gonna be too sad about it. It doesn't surprise me that they don't love me back, I mean with the way I am. Maybe I just have to get better... But hopefully tomorrow I won't binge like I did today.. Hopefully...
