A few last words

Finding Out The News

                 Police Report
Case: Suicide
Lilian Roberts was found dead by her mom when she came home to the sight of her daughter's bloody corpse in the kitchen
Was found dead with gun by her hand,further evidence is being found,like cause of the suicide
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I never thought I was going to be this way
I never thought that she would do it
I should've known,if anyone did it would've been me
She didn't come to school that day She never missed,so I went over to her house,only to see cops surrounding the place
Worried,I asked the cops what had happened and they filled me in on everyone
Now I'm just sitting in my room,not knowing what to do or think
I don't feel anything,never have
I have became numb and void to emotions for awhile now
But I had this aching pain in my stomach,like I should be feeling an emotion
But I don't
I should be crying,I should be torn But I'm just numb. I don't know how to feel about this
Now I'm alone. I always asked to be left alone but didn't know it would happen.
I wonder some things
Like when the funeral will be,how it will affect me.
Will I get over it?
I won't have any more friends.
She was my only friend my whole life.
Everyone else either hates me or just doesn't know I exist.
I've got use to this fact,and my mom doesn't have any idea.
I have been broken for a long time I can't feel anything and I don't know how to feel.
The time is 10:34pm
Should I get some rest?
Can I get any rest?
I'll try.
(A/N: I'm sorry it's so short I'll add more soon >.<)