My POV
"Omg, you smell so good, y/n-ah" Jungkook said and continued kissing my while I was sitting on his desk in his office.
"Stop, Jungkook. What if Heeyong-sshi sees us?" I asked in between in the kiss.
"Shh" he put his finger to his mouth, signal me to keep quiet. "She won't, trust me" he continued.
After that, he started kissing my neck. He was about to unbutton my shirt when I stopped him, grabbing his wrist. He looked up, "What are you doing?" he asked as we now stop whatever that we were doing.
"Jungkook-ah, I think we should stop before we go any further. And if you really want to do, at least...." I said.
"At least?"
"At least break up with Heeyong-sshi"
"You know I can't. I really love her. I can't hurt her and also, I don't want to even if I can. She doesn't deserve this." he said, mumbled the last sentence but I still managed to hear it.
"What did you say? You said you love her. You said you can't hurt and you said...." I said as tears rolled down my cheek. "And you said she doesn't deserve this." I continued as my voice became smaller and smaller.
"Jungkook, what about me? You think I deserve this?" I asked him as he tried to avoid my eyes.
"JUNGKOOK, LOOK AT ME" I shouted, making him look up straight into my eyes.
"DO YOU THINK I DESERVE THIS?" I asked him again. "Do you how hurt I am these days? You said we'll be fine. You said you will break up with her. But now you tell me that you love her and you can't hurt her. DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL, JUNGKOOK-AH? Do you know that? I feel like living in hell everyday. People call her; your girlfriend, Jeon Jungkook's girlfriend. Do you know how this fucking hurt me when you know that you should be the one who's in her place right now. And Me? What? Your secretary. I'm just your secretary who works for you." I said but he just say there, without any movement.
I wiped my tears and got up, fixing my clothes and my hair.
"Jungkook-ah, I give you some time to think. Break up with your girlfriend or stop seeing me. When you're done thinking, you can come to me anytime you want." I said and left his office.
But before leaving, I turned to look at him one more time, "And if you want, I can quit this job for you." I said and took my leave.
'I'm sorry, Jungkook-ah. I wanted to fight this for you, for us. But if we keep continue, it's just gonna hurt the three of us more. I'm sorry.' I thought as tears kept running down my cheek.
And that day was the first day that I cried myself to sleep.
