My life story

chapter 8: sophomore year. the somewhat okay year

    it a started out great then things got interesting. I loved the school year so far then i found out my uncle and them were moving in. I hated the idea of it, i didn't want them to move in. they moved in i now go to school with my cousins . it took a while getting used to tho a lot of changes happened.  now at this point in time I was already hiding a secret from my family. i was hiding the fact i'm transgender no one really knew except close friends i trusted not to tell.  It was harder to say something than I thought. Its still a secret to some people like some of my family knows not all. I can't say anything cause the fear of getting disowned.

      It's been weeks since I told some family members  about my secret. I still fear the day I'll be disowned. I guess I'll get over it sooner or later. back to the main story. I got into a fight with this bitch. It got to the point I got depressed and started hurting my self again. I dragged my family into my fight I couldn't handle it anymore. It got better at first it ended. A few weeks past from this fight and she started  messegeing  me again. I couldn't  handle it I was afraid. My cousin took my phone and saw the messages. He got her to stop. But the eye glares never ended. The rumors never stopped. The year was going by I learned how the sound borad works somewhat for drama. I went on a few school trips.

       Then i went down I was broken and lost. I found out my grandfather has cancer. I broke I couldn't handle it. I cried in class was in guidance office daily. I was lost by the end of the year. This is my messed up life. But it still continues. I still did everything  I loved I continued with  a smile on my face acted like it was okay but it really wasn't. I wasn't okay I lost my hope,dreams, and my happiness. I don't think I can ever be happy again.