Cameron, Nash, and I had just gotten back to the hotel from the 99 cent store, where we bought all this random shit for their Best Friend Challenge video. Seriously, we got jalapeño sauce, dog food, bird seed, the works. We had just finished setting up the tarp and the camera when Lindsay and Morgan walked in.
“Hey, do you guys wanna burn one before you get started?” Morgan asked as she held out the blunt to Cameron.
“Fucking right!” Nash exclaimed and grabbed it from her hand to smell it.
Cameron glanced mischievously at me and waggled his eyebrows, silently asking me if I was going to join. It had been a while since I smoked weed, and I was a little hesitant. Just because my birthday was 4-20 didn’t mean that I was a huge pot head. I smoked a lot when I was a senior in high school and my freshman year of college, but I was kind of over the whole thing. Despite my uncertainness, I nodded and grabbed my lighter from my pack of cigarettes.
“Hell yeah! I was wondering if Alyson was ever gonna blaze with us.” Nash said as I handed him the lighter.
We all sat down on Nash’s bed as Nash took the first hit and started coughing like crazy.
“Good shit?” I asked, trying to stifle my laughter as he passed it on to Morgan.
“Only the best for my best guys!” Morgan exclaimed before taking a hit. Unlike Nash, she took it a lot better and leaned over to Cameron and gave him shotgun. Her lips lightly pressing against his as she exhaled and Cameron did the opposite. Cameron smirked as he let out the smoke. I fought off the jealous twinge I felt in my chest. I had really started to care for Cameron since I joined the MAGCON tour a few months back, but I had come to terms with the fact that he was an uncompromising flirt and I wasn’t going to let it get to me.
We finished the blunt fairly quickly, which wasn’t surprising considering there were five people taking hits off of it. However, that doesn’t mean we weren’t fucked up. Whatever Morgan and Lindsay had gotten was seriously good. They were all cracking up at nothing as I stared off blankly at the tarp with everything on it, lost in my own thoughts. This is why I hadn’t smoked a whole lot as of late. I would get lost in my own head which for me, was the most dangerous place to get lost. The scars that were placed strategically on my hips and the two not so strategically placed ones going down on my wrists were proof enough to that fact.
I was brought back from my thoughts as Cameron nudged my shoulder a little harder than he had probably intended. I could tell by his eyes that he was baked.
“Everything okay, Aly?” He asked, the corners of his lips slightly upturned as he attempted, but failed miserably to put on a straight face.
“Yeah, I’m fine. I just zoned out for a while, I guess.”
“Are you sure, you’ve been picking really hard at your bracelets.” He quickly glanced from my wrists to my face, which made me place my hands palms down on the bed. The only person that had ever noticed anything was Matt. He knew I had tried to kill myself in October, but I couldn’t bring myself to tell him why. It hurt too much. And Matt left it at that, but reminded me he was always there to talk if I needed him. Sweet little Matt, after meeting him was the only time I had ever wanted a little brother.
“Yeah, I’m sure. So when are y’all gonna get this video started? We’ve been sitting here for like 45 minutes.” I playfully nudge his shoulder and glance up at Nash.
“She’s right man, let’s get this shit done!” Nash said as he finished his munchies cereal.
“What would we do without our responsible little Alyson!” Cameron teased as he gave me a quick peck on the cheek. He was always very affectionate towards me (and everybody else) but it hadn’t lost its effect with time.
I shook it off quickly and replied, “Little? Excuse me sir, but I am four months older than you.”
“This is true, but I am five inches taller than you, so therefore, I win.” He said looking pleased with his retort causing me to laugh.
“Your logic has no merit, whatsoever.”
While our little bout of wits was going, Morgan inched herself closer to Cameron and put her arms around his waist.
“So what are we gonna do after you guys finish Cam?” Before he could reply she leaned up and whispered something that I’m sure was rather vulgar into his ear. I looked away as Cam smirked and said, “We’ll see.” only to glance up and see a satisfied smile on Morgan’s face as she looked from Cam to me.
I didn’t understand why she felt like she had to stake her claim on him like he was a prize. It’s not like I could ever compare to her anyway. She was petite with long brown hair and a cute face. Exactly the kind of girl Cam always went for, whereas I was a little on the chunky side. However, I was proportionate. Along with my huge ass, I had a top to match it so I didn’t look too bad. I had eyes that changed from blue to green so often that no one could ever tell what color my eyes were, included myself. And long dark blonde hair that cascaded in natural beachy waves down my back (You could tell I was from Florida). While some guys may have found me somewhat attractive, I wasn’t Cam’s type.
As Nash and Cameron stood in front of the camera and filmed their intro I checked my phone to see Matt had text me.
Where r u?
Come to mine and Carter’s room.
After sending a quick reply I stood up and walked toward the door. Nash, who was setting up the camera on the tarp asked,
“Hey, where you goin’?”
“Matt texted me, I’ll be back in a few.” I picked up a room key from the bedside table before I reached the door.
“But this is gonna be hilarious, you don’t wanna watch us make the video?” Cam asked as he sat down in the chair in front of the camera.
“I’ll be right back, and either way I’ll see the footage.” I teased while opening the door, “see you in a bit.”
Cameron looked a little disappointed as I quickly closed the door. He knew he could get me with that damn puppy dog pout. I swear, it was like he was 4 years old instead of 19.
