I woke up to the sound of my dad's voice yelling about god knows what. I groaned trying to drown out the noise. For a minute it sounded like he was yelling my Aunt Emily for getting me sort of drunk last night. I don't know what possessed me to tell my dad what happened when I went out with her, because all it made him do was get worked up. I got up to get ready for school and an hour later after going through ten outfits and four hair styles I settled on a plaid blouse, black jeans and my hair in a ponytail, and I made my way downstairs.
"Morning dad" I said in a non-energetic tone
"Morning Lex" he said looking guilty.
"what was all that about? Were you yelling at Emily again? You can't keep getting mad at her for a decision that I made! I wanted to go out last night! And another thing I'm seventeen not ten, stop treating me like I'm a baby."
He could tell I was beginning to get defensive, which would not have ended well. there was a long pause between us after my little rant, but finally he spoke.
"No sweetie I wasn't arguing with Emily, I was on the phone with your brother, he said he can't come and visit this year again, he says he has some work to do up north." "you know all he has are excuses all the time," he started again.
I hadn't seen Nathan since our mom died six years ago, I was eleven and he was eighteen. After that my dad got full custody of me and Nathan moved away to start his own life with some hooker lady he called the love of his life. We weren't that close anyways, so it wasn't such a big deal to me, as it was for my dad (John).
"Well dad, I'm late for school already so we'll talk later, okay."
"Okay Lex, have a good day!" he called over his shoulder, as he walked up the stairs to his room.
"Ha like that'll happen," I muttered under my breath.
On my way to school I felt tears welding up in my eyes, the thought occurred to me that I really did miss my brother. He was just the one person that was missing in my life, and for the first time in a long time I just broke down. I think I cried straight for a good ten minutes. I had never been one to give into my emotions in that way.. But... I could honestly say that it felt good to just let go.
As I entered the school parking lot I cleared my throat and dried my tears trying not to make it obvious that I had been crying. Before I got out of my car I looked in the mirror to see if my mascara had run (wow I was such a girl). As I turned around,
"Boo!!" Leah yelled through my window, she's been my best friend since second grade, she always liked to play jokes on people especially me.
"jeez Leah you scared the crap out of me!" I said my heart pounding hard against my chest.
"Haha I got you good!" she laughed cynically.
"You know you have to sto-......" I stopped mid-sentence only to catch sight of the most gorgeous well-built guy at Westlake High School Jason Lewis, he literally made every girl stop and stare like that song by One Republic 'Stop and Stare', that's exactly what all of the girls at our school did. (Superficial I know, but I couldn't blame them, he was really cute). I just stood there in a daze and I probably looked like an idiot staring at him like that, like I was possessed.
"Lexy! Lexy! Hello!" Leah yelled snapping her fingers in my face, even though I saw her, it still startled me a little when she shook me.
"oh um sorry what were we talking about again?"
"I'm pretty sure, eye raping your classmate is against student protocol" she said laughing
"No I wasn't, I just glanced at him" by then I was already looking guilty.
