Forgiving Legend

First Day🔅

Liza Bryksina as Jessie
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A part of me always craved for the perfect family, or just a mom and dad. Someone I could call on and they will always be there for me.

I remember every time a couple would walk through the two brown oak doors, of the foster home, I would hope that it would be me to leave through those doors with them.

But that never happened and the feeling I got every time I saw a kid leave, made my heart break. It got so hard to see kid after kid leave that  I wouldn't even bother going downstairs when couples would come.

Kids would make fun of me saying no one would ever want me, that I was gonna be in this foster care forever.

They were right.

Sometimes I would go across the hall and sleep in legends bed. It made me feel safe, like apart of him was there with me.

I knew I wouldn't stay mad at him forever, and that if I ever saw him again I don't know what I would do. Some part of me still feels betrayed that he left. But another part of me understood that just as much as I wanted a family he wanted one too.

And if that made him happy, I would have to accept that.

A shiver ran down my spine as the cool night air attack my light brown hair and the honey blond streaks flew across my face. I sat on top of the roof of my apartment building looking out at the lights that lit the city of Chicago.

My hand wrap more tightly around my styrofoam cup of hot chocolate. Loving the warmth it provided making me feel warm.

School starts in two days, and so does the end of summer. I dread walking threw the halls of  Green-hills high. I can already hear the students smart remarks.

With a sigh I got up throwing my cup and trudged to the dirty green door that lead to the stairs of my apartment floor.

Entering my apartment I throw my keys on the hook and locked the door. Walking to the refrigerator I take out the ingredients to make a ham and cheese sandwich.

It's been kind of rough without having any money, just lying around.

I don't go back to work until after school on the first day, which is a lot already knowing that my teachers are gonna throw homework right at my face.

I went grocery shopping a little last week with my pay check, only getting a few things that I know would last me over till I get paid again. Mrs. Mary agreed to pay my rent for a couple months until I become stable enough to handle everything on my On.

She's honestly like the mother I've never had.

Taking a bite out of my sandwich, my stomach growled in delight of the food. I put everything away before going to my bed room and laying down while taking another bite out of my midnight snack.

Finishing my snack and turning on my side, I pull the covers closer to me snuggling into the warmth.

I let memories flood my mind as I drift to sleep.

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Fuck, Fuck, Fuck I groan out tugging on my black leggings.

Throwing my clothes out my dresser I finally settle on a light blue button up shirt.