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I couldn't take the pain rising in my chest. Blaire, why didn't I ask her out... Why didn't I ask her to be my precious girlfriend. It wasn't fair to her that I wasn't ready.

Tears streamed down my face as I flipped to Page 2.

I was a new student, transferred from California. It was already the third month of school.

I was so lost, everyone ignored me. I tried to ask for help, but no one cared. They walked past me, as if I was invisible.

I felt rejected.
I felt pain.

But it wasn't the first time I felt it. It wasn't the second either. Not the third, not the fourth, not the fifth. So many times, that I've lost count.

So it was okay. My body was numb to these feelings. I didn't feel it, but my heart was hurting.

I was hurt at California, was I going to be hurt at Sydney? I was hurt at home, was I going to be hurt at school? Those were the questions blaring in my head, never stopping.

Until you came.

Flashback
Blaire's POV
March 12, 2014.

"Hey, do you need help?" a student asked me, touching my shoulders.

I looked up, clearly my eyes were filled with panic. "Y-yes."

"Don't worry." He flashed me a smile. "I'm Josh Dylan."

I smiled softly back at him, feeling the comfort radiating through my body. "I'm Blaire Winters."

"So, where do you need to go?" Josh asked.

"Class A2." I answered steadily.

"Okay, follow me." He said, pulling my arm through the crowd.

My legs matched his speed, ignoring the palm wrapped around my arm. I felt happy for a moment.

It felt like someone cared for me.

Flashback over

But I was wrong.
Wrong at the end.

Maybe not wrong to you,
But I wronged myself.

To think that this,
This was going to build into something else.

It was pathetic for me to think that we would be together.

Not just best friends Josh, I don't want to be best friends. Not now, not before.

But I guess you can't change that now, can you?

You weren't the only person to make feel pain. You don't deserve to be blamed, Josh. But it hurt a lot, it hurt when you broke your promise.

To save me,
To love me,
To never ever hurt me.