Chapter 22:
(deeks pov)
I just sit there in my bed 1000 questions buzzing through my head. Im scared of whats going to happen next, im scared that i'll never be normal. My thoughts are stopped when a nurse comes in. She shits down in a chair near. "Hello Mr.Deeks, how are you doing?" she asks me. "Im okay....i guess" i answer. " So today i'm here to tell you what you have exactly" I nod without saying anything. "So you had a car accident 11 days ago, you and your wife were coming back from a party, your wife didnt have any achool in her, which is normal since shes normal, but the wierd thing is you didn't have any either, so you should have been fine driving." She stops for a minute or two then she continues "so im not here to talk about hwat happened im here to talk about your future. First of all Mr.Deeks you are very very very lucky that the speaking and konwledge part of your brain didnt get affected, only the people and who you were before has apperantly gone. You are lucky to have a caring wife, shes going to help you get used to who you were before again." I nod again without saying anything "Well Mr.Deeks ive got to go now goodbye" she smiles, she starts walking out of the room but she stops at the door " Mr.Deeks I know its going to be hard, but your wife, she dosn't want to loose you, everyday for 11 days she was holding your hand day and night and praying for you to wake up" she smiles one more time and walks out of the room.
I was so deep in thought about what the nurse had told me that I had almost forgotten that my wife was having a test to see if our baby was still alive. She walked into the room and sat next to me, she had a big smile on her face "Our babys alright" she says. I smile but i don't say anything. She looks at me straight in the eyes. I can see tears but she dosnt let the out. "You know Deeks, im going to help you get through this, I want our lives to be like they were before, I want our baby to have a normal family, I want you Deeks, I miss the old you already but if you change im going to deal with it, even if youre not the Deeks i feel in love with, i still love you...so much" I don't say anything, what should i say, i love you back to someone i dont even know? "I want to belive you, and I want to be with our baby with you I guess but I don't know if I can" I tell her. "Of course you can" she says smiling. I dont reply. " She stands up and says, " if you don't want to be with be, i wouldn't be able to live, you're my second half, if you don't want to be with me its like theyre ripping half of me open, if you don't wanna be with me, theres no point of living anymore, beause i love you" she walks stragiht out of the room leaving me alone and desperate to get back to my old and normal life.
