My heart was rushing as I step aboard my plane. I was going halfway around the world today. My Europe trip had finally arrived and I was excited about. However, this was not what made my heart skip beats. It was the fear of not being able to keep
in touch with Heather. We have been dating for one month and fourteen days. We would always find a way to stay in touch since she lived so far away from me. Anything we could do to hear each others voice or see each others miraculous eyes. We would snap, txt, Skype Call, and regular phone calls. Now it would be a little different for us and I did not want that to affect our love towards each other. I would not have internet access all the time taking out or snaps, calls, and video chats. This may not seem that big of a deal to people but love does this to you and I really enjoy it. I love missing her so much and wanting to talk to her constantly. To be able to annoy her saying "I love you princess" or "I love you more" every second! We had an argument two days about her ex texting her and I don't want anything like that to happen while I am gone. I don't want her to be stressed as I am so far away with limited availability to talk. This is the big reason for my fear. The rushing of my heart today as I fly to Amsterdam. The way she looks at me just pierces my heart in the most beautiful way. I am so afraid to think about ever losing her. Heather means a lot... I know everyone says this about there girlfriend but I know with her. I have had many relationships in the past telling girls I loved them. However with Heather I have come to that stage in life where everything clicks you know. The part in life where you mature and learn your lesson. I don't want to ever have to think about finding someone else because it is Heather and I know. She never knows how much she means to me in the slightest way. The way she cares about people all the time is so mesmerizing to me. The beauty inside her is incredible and I am so deeply in love with it. If they have hurt her some how this angel still manages a way to be nice to them. I am learning so much from watching her. I love how she teaches kids at a gymnastics school even if she says she hates the kids. She fights and fights only to improve those kids lives and help them excel in life. This is so touching to my heart and this is the girl I love. I am so blessed and lucky whatever you can describe it as to have her in my life. Today right before the my Amsterdam flight took of she texted me saying "never forget me" which I wanted to cry over so badly. I could feel a tear rushing down my oily skin from running around the airport. I felt it drop on my hand as I text her saying I love her a lot and would never forget her. This was the reason my heart rushed all day. I never wanted this angel to ever feel that way because nothing in this world is going to stop me from thinking about her. I just feel sad I guess as I type this out. The reason for my sadness is no matter how long I type for her talk to her I don't know how to express my love for her. I always feel like she does not know how much I care and its the small things like that which make me feel like she has no idea. I am willing to do anything to see that beautiful smile stretch her silk smooth skin across her face. I long for the day I get to run my course fingers down her face majestic face and down to her arms to pull her into a warm and loving hug. She is everything I need in this life and beyond. I want to be able to spend time with her everyday and have a small family if she wants. I know I can provide a good future for both of us as a pilot and not have to panic about not being able to see her. Its never enough for me to day dream about her and I. Always keeping her fresh in my daily thoughts and how I go on about my day. Thinking of how my actions might make her happy or upset and proceeding in life with caution. This all does mot bother me as it may seem if I am doing to much forcefully for her. I just love being in love and having someone but myself to live for in life. I love making her happy and it means a whole new life to me. I am sorry if all this seems repetitive in parts but Like I said before I cannot ever get tired of complimenting this beautiful princess that is in my life. As I am flying and the time nears 8:30pm which is when she gets off work I am getting antsy. Its 8:07pm and I am listening to Despacito by Luis Fonsi which is a song we listen together on a skype call. I am waiting think about how her perfect smile is going to appear on my snapchat when she gets off work. Then I am going to listen her you complain about the kids and how tired she is. I already miss her melodic voice that soothes me and calms me down. I close my eyes to imagine her and I together holding hands. Her looking into my eyes with her beautiful chestnut brown eyes. Running my fingers through her rough and tangled hair from being dyed to much and not brushed. As my hands go down from her hair I tou h her face. I observe the beautiful smile she puts on like its the last time I will see it. She starts laughing at my stupid jokes and funny faces I make for her. My tears run down my closed eyes as I can see us together just like in Maryland. Going park to park city to city while we are the happiest couple in this universe. In our perfect universe.
