Prologue
Do you ever question to why life has put you into this situation?
Do you ever find life unfair?
Do you ever blame life to why you need to encounter this problem?
Dahil ba ganito dapat ito?
Dahil ba may nagawa akong sobrang karumaldumal noon that's why I need to have this burden?
"Why is it easy for you to leave, Klio?" I said in the middle of the road.
"Because sometimes holding on does more damage than letting go, Kiez." His cold baritone filled my ears. I have never seen him so serious in the span of 5 years. So this is it, huh?
I guess chasing him is more like a hobby now. Do I feel pity to myself? Maybe? No? I don't know. I am enjoying in my hobby. Because I always believe that dreams do come true.
"But why? I thought you love me?" I plead as I look into his cold eyes, and those two orbs that sent shivers to my spine.
"Love is not enough, Kiez. In a relationship, love is not enough. I also need acceptance," usal niya na puno ng paghihinayang.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"You need to accept my flaws. You need to know the mishaps in my life. You need to a-accept me," he said in a shaky manner.
And nakita ko ang isang takas na luha sa kanyang mata. Nasasaktan akong makita siyang umiiyak.
And it's as if he is slowly fading into my arms. I can feel that it is time for me to let go also.
"Life is so fucking unfair! UGHH!" I groaned out of despair.
"Of all people, bakit ako pa ang makakaranas nito?" Mahinang usal ko na tila'y isang bulong na lamang.
"Life is never unfair. It's faith that needs to take the blame. To why you were put up in this situation? Maybe because you need to be in that situation for you to learn. Because a person who never made a mistake, never learned anything new," mahabang paliwanag niya.
Ha! And narinig niya pa talaga ako? Akala ko ba'y aalis na siya?!
"And when you've already learned that lesson. You'll find the true meaning of life," dagdag niya pa.
"At ano nga ba ang ang buhay?! BULLSHIT? Bullshit naman diba?" Galit na sabi ko sa kanya.
"Life is living the way it is supposed to be." sagot niya at tumalikod na sakin. Unti unti na siyang nawawala sa paningin ko. Sa... buhay ko.
I slowly collapsed on the road. I felt the rain slowly pouring but the heat of my tears was more evident. I tried to stand up, but ended up falling again. I saw bruises on my knees. Blood in my palms.
I knew that this day would come.
I wanted this day to end, right now.
Would this be worth it? Would this end up the way what I wanted it to be?
"No..." I uttered like a whisper.
I smiled bitterly.
Say hello to the new me.
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Murkiezah Miracle Midoriza.
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And then suddenly.... all I see is black.
