Lost To The Voices

I woke up. I'm in a meadow. I didn't sleep here, the last thing I remember was I locked my room. I knew what I was going to do. I knew I didn't want to do it. I can't change the past.
Damn... I'm dead.
The clear sky opens up. I'm being pulled to the sky by a force I can't see. now I'm in the scene. I see people dressed in black, I see an open casket. I try to get my way through calling "excuse me". No one moves. No one hears me. I walk through the others. I'm ghost-like. I look over to see the casket... it's me.... my dead body
Now I remember I killed myself. I see in the corner my mother crying... no one can sooth her. Had I been selfish? I see people from my school. all my peers, school administration, current and former teachers. I see old friends surprised I see teachers and the same people who caused me to do what I did... Crying.
Background on myself
• I was fat many called me fat so I made a change I ended up anorexic and bulimic
• I was always picked on
• I was an emo
• I loved heavy metal
Now back to reality. I never thought I'd say it... I'm at my own funeral.
Chapter 2
I am back in the meadow, I've been judged, I'm in heaven! its amazing. I have so many unbelievable powers. I can talk to people still on earth and fly. I will try it tonight.
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She's in her room alone... my mother. my throat tightens I can't bear to see her in tears, I swallow hard.
"Mommy" I say my throat still tight and I am unable to breath easily.
"Annalise is it really you?" she asks "yes mommy it is." I stare at her she can't see me but she sees my movements " Annalise why'd you do it baby was it that bad?" tears are in her eyes again " I'm sorry mommy, I love you so much, heaven is amazing its beautiful". tears roll down her face " its okay baby, I understand" her voice tightens. "mommy I love you I will come and visit you but do me a favor don't cry. her response.. simple a warm smile that says " I love you babe". I hug her she can feel it and can feel the out line of my figure. "I love you Analise"
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I'm back I close my eyes I can see myself in the mirror I'm alive "MOM" I shout... My mother runs up the stairs opens the door she drops her coffee on the floor and hugs me "my baby is back"