I am scared .
I am afraid .
Afraid of disappointing my parents.
No, I have never disappointed them .
But there is something in me which constantly keeps me on edge .
That 'something ' brings a lot of anxieties and fear in me .
The fear of not displaying by best to the ones I love .
To many , it may sound very ridiculous.
Ridiculous, because my parents are always so proud of me . So fond of me .
They think, I am just seeking attention .
But aren't my parents proud of me because I have always made them proud of me ?
Did I ever showed failure to them ? No.
Then how come I can assure myself that , when the time will come , the time of my downfall , they will support me , be my backbone ?
I don't want sympathy.
I don't want pity.
I want the twinkle in their eyes whenever they speak to others about my achievements.
I want the peace in me , before I close my eyes at night , the peaceful feelings you get knowing no one is disappointed at you.
People say , their aim in life is this or that .
Being successful in their careers, be a banker , be a scientist and the list goes on.....
My aim in life ?
Just one.
To make my parents goddamn proud of me .
Always and forever .
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You can all pm me or rant on the comment section and share your problems with me...
And I will rant everything about my life over here . You are welcome to thread this thread anytime :)
Pain gets lessened, only when shared .
Whoever reading this right now, just now,
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE INTELLIGENT. YOU ARE WORTH IT ❤️
