I thought that once I exposed my secrets "set my demons free," things would be better. Little did I know more obstacles where to come and this was only the beginning. Determined to rise I was no longer going to stay victim and trapped in this dysfunction, it was now about me, my survival and nothing could stop me. Easier said than done. When a person has been through different traumatic circumstances such as neglect, physical, mental & sexual abuse it tends to be hard for us to look at ourselves and believe that we are worth it. We are! As I sit here faced with my own dilemmas in life I find myself discouraged in many ways. The past few years have just been "icing on the cake" and if I had any chance at making things right I needed to do some serious work. So let me start off by introducing myself. My name is Christina for those that know me Well, know that Im one that is "stuck in the past" as society likes to call it. For some reason I cant "get over" what I have been through. Now I say it "no wonder" what else can be expected when you come from a family who suppresses everything. You know "What happens in this house stays in this house". There has been decades of murder, mental, physical & sexual abuse, neglect, drug & alcohol abuse, but yet everyone acts like nothing ever happened. This started to make me question "Just how common is this?", and "How many Christina's were there out there"? "How many men and woman felt like they were exploding from the inside out, like they were being eatin alive by the secrets they kept?" Then it dawned on me, "Too Many"! I had to do something for myself and every other Christina out there. I had to let it all out every last toxic bit of it. In the process of doing so I hope to inspire others to join me in becoming survivors no longer trapped in our families dysfunction.
