My Irreplaceable Love (NicoMaki)

Chapter 16

Sorry for being so late XD
I'm just enjoying my free holiday. And my phone's broken for days, so yeah. I still have lessons on holidays too. Poor me.

Enjoy!

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◆ Eli's POV

"What?! Nico had an accident?" I yelled at my phone. Maki called me and told me that Nico had a car accident.

"Yeah. She's in Nishikino Hospital. You can come if you want to."

"Okay, I'll come. Thanks, Maki." I ended.

Nico is in the Hospital. Why I didn't even know this before? I better rush.

(After 15 minutes taxi ride)

"Excuse me! Where is room Mrs. Yazawa?" I asked.

"She's in room 324. Just -" I cut her sentence with a 'sorry, I better hurry'. I can find the room by myself because there are signs in every floor.

So... floor 1, nope. Floor 2, nope. Floor 3...

Finally! I just have to turn left.

I searched for a door that has a 342 number attached onto it. Ah, I found it. I knocked the door to see if there's any response.

Suddenly, someone turns the door knob to answer. I saw Making standing in front of me. Her eyes are red. She must be crying so hard.

"Come in." She welcomed.

What happened to her? She acts very nice to me. First, she tells me that Nico had an accident. If she really wants me to forget about Nico, she doesn't have to tell me. But, she did. I thought she loves her. Did her head get a bump or something? Never mind.

After I looked straight, all I can see is Nico laying on her bed. I came closer to her, to see if she's alright. Of course she's not. Stupid Eli.

"So, what do you think?" Maki asked with her heart breaking tone. Her voice almost cracked.

"I feel sorry for her." I said.

Silence filled between us. This is so awkward. I really wanted to cry. But, there's Maki beside me. I can't cry in front of her. All I wanted is to hold Nico's hand, hug her, talk to her. Kiss... her? N.. no. Not that... yet.

"I'll be waiting outside if you need me." She excused herself to go outside.

Oh, what a coincidence.

After I checked Maki was perfectly outside so she can't see me here, I began to come even closer to Nico who's laying helpless. I feel so bad for her.

"Nico." I started to say. "I.." I really wanted to say sorry but, I feel like there's nothing I need to say sorry about. It's her fault that she got here.

W... wait.

No, Eli. You shouldn't be saying this. It's your fault, it's your fault. But, why's this my fault?

I started to feel dizzy. I need someone to accompany me. But, who? Maki? No way.

Someone knocked the door.

It's Maki. "Want to talk?" She offered. It's really a coincidence, isn't it?

"Y.. Yeah." I said, I have no choice. I don't want to be alone.

She came in, and then sit next to me. It's awkward because we didn't even get an eye contact. Should I start the conversation?

"Have you say sorry to her?" She started to ask.

"N.. No. Not yet, I mean. I don't know why I have to say sorry, to be honest."

"So, you don't feel guilty for all of this? "

"W.. Well, yeah. That's why I was really happy when you offer me to talk." I said honestly. I'm kinda embarrassed though. "I would like some advice or whatever that's useful,maybe..."

After I said that, she stayed silent. Maybe she's thinking of perfect pearl words that can convinced me that this is all my fault.

"I.. I don't like to blame. And, you're right probably, it's not your fault. If I didn't run away after you slapped me, perhaps this kind of situation wouldn't happen at all." She said. "And I just realized I'm a devil."

I'm surprised at that statement. I wouldn't have known she can say anything like that. She really considers herself as a devil, huh?

"You know, I made everyone all around me to suffer. First, my dad. He wants me to be a doctor but I refused because I want to be a pianist. Back then, I only loved everything that only involved arts and music. I don't see any interest being a doctor, although I have that ability to do it. Now, he's mad at me like crazy and I'm still impressed that he wants to take care of Nico. His life got even crazier back then when he divorced with my mother and he also had a hard time looking for a specialist doctor that can replace me. He succeed, though."

Oh, I never knew a person like her has family problems.

"Second, my mom. My mom is kind, she supports everything that I liked and I loved. But, I knew from the bottom of her heart she still wants me to be a doctor. She never argued with me about everything. My hobbies, possessions, dreams, and all. She only accepts everything that I planned for so long, to be a pianist. Maybe I made her suffer through her life because I never heard her suggest something for me, and I knew that she really wanted to. But, instead I had a long talk with dad about my dreams and stuff."

She swallowed her saliva, and starts to speak again.

"Third, my friends. Umi and Kotori. We have a big bond together as friends, we are always together. But, I always thought that they are better without me after I got that pianist job. I always perform abroad almost every week and I got no time to be with them. Usually I always came to them if I need help or if I'm lonely or bored or something. But, I'm never there when they needed me. They always help each other, but me? I'm just disturbing them. Maybe I don't deserve them."

"Fourth, my employees. They always obey to me but, I treated them like they were toys. I'm always rude to them. Never say hi, never look at their faces except when they made a mistake and I have to talk to them and give them punishments. I never smile to them, so they never see my smile. Even my manager. I always win in every fight with him, to be honest. But, I always feel guilty after that. I knew he only wants the best for me and I should appreciate it. So, yeah."

"Fifth, Nico." Finally. She took a deep breath, to start speaking again. And then the expression, that's the expression of a pure guiltness among others. "I don't know if this is because of my brain or something, but I forgot that when we were in High School, we are a so-close-friend, until she came up to me at Homura Bakery. First, I didn't believed it. But, when I found my old phone, I remembered. I remembered that we used to be best friends, and, we loved each other back then. Yeah, stupid me. You can say that if you want to. Because, I am. If I didn't forget about her, this wouldn't happen. It's all my fault, you don't have to be so guilty. She has suffered all this time because of me, but in London you cheered her back. I should thank you, I shouldn't got jealous. So, I hope you took care of her until her mother become conscious. Thanks for everything."

Finished. That's how she ended it? By saying thank you and walk away?

"If you want to know the sixth," she said suddenly. Her eyes started to watered. "Well, the sixth is... You." She walked away, and then she closed the door. Leaving me here in silence.

Gosh, she really loves Nico...  And me? Maybe... Maybe I was wrong. I... I don't love her. Maki deserves her, not me. Maki, I don't understand why you said that you made me suffer. I'm the one who made you suffer Maki, you made me realized what I did wrong all this time, instead. I should thank you, not the other way around. Maki, you always have negative thoughts. You need some love.