Justin Bieber Dirty Imagines

anniversary

okay sorry dis is not an update but it's past midnight where I am so I'll update in the morning, I'm just coming on here to basically cry lmaoo.

Today would have been me and my first loves three year anniversary and it's hurting me way more then it should, I mean; he's my brothers best friend so I see him literally twenty four seven maybe that's what makes it hard? I dunno, anyway-- ugly paragraph I wrote below.

was posted on my instagram @sippycupzmel at 11:55pm

it's not midnight yet, and I shouldn't really care about this-- but, today June Eleventh would have been three years with the first man I have ever loved. I miss you, I'm not going to lie and say I don't when I do; but, I am going to say that I miss what we had more than I actually miss y o u. I loved you so much, more than I've ever loved anything even at such a young age I knew the amount of love I held for you was going to hurt me in the end and I was right-- it did, it hurt me more than I'd like to admit. Although you hurt me, I wouldn't change anything. You showed me what falling in love was like, and what falling out of love was like. You showed me how much fun and happiness lives in love and how much hurt and heartbreak lives out of it. You showed me that I can't trust everyone with my heart, you showed me what love was. And for that, ks, I thank you. I thank you for loving me, for allowing me to love you, for caring about me, for teaching me how to love a person more than I've ever loved myself. You were my first love, the first boy I had ever cried over; the first boy I ever kissed, etc. Being in love with you made me feel like a kid, full of happiness, creativity, joy, yet also scared and nervous. I will always love you, probably forever; but I am no longer in love with you and in a way to be honest, that scares me. Because I've never loved anyone the way I love you, the way I loved you. So, ks, first love, thank you for caring about me when you did; thank you for showing me love and compassion and heartbreak. Thanks for the great but annoying five years of knowing you, in a weird way I'm happy to call you my pal. love you stupid face.