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Temporary Lost

Non-Fiction

I never really had the courage to state my feelings, so I just write. It somehow heals my immense pain from the brutal abuse of reality. What you are about to read are very personal, so no bullies, please. I already had enough. I'm 12 and this is...

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Did I want This?

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by YasminYsabelBBuen

by YasminYsabelBBuen

I wanted this, right?

I always wanted to enrol in that Science Highschool instead of that school near my house. So I took the entrance test.

Passed

The interview?

Passed

The sectioning?

STE (star section)

I always dreamt of entering there. But, I don't know anymore.

I was basically nothing but awkward, Not being my very friendly-quirky-bubbly-self anymore. Sure it seems reasonable since it was my first day but, something feels wrong. Like . . .

I don't belong.

Just a quick reminder that not anyone can pass. It is a very difficult process to go through.

So, I should feel enough. Maybe.

I just feel so alone. After my elementary graduation, I was just ignored. Like I fell into a deep, dark ditch or something. I'm like the wind, can be felt but can't be seen.

I tried talking, but it looks like they're just annoyed and embarrassed being seen with me.

I dunno.

And that doesn't help the fact that I felt like that at school too. I hope this will pass soon.

I'm just so intimidated by the people around me, always feeling conscious and insecure all the time. This is not the 'me' that I used to know. But, did I really Understand who I was?

I hate it, the feeling of neglect.

I hate it.

I hate it

I fucking hate it.

I hate me.

*sigh*

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