Letter for HER

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by shipsamidang

by shipsamidang

Dear Mina,

Hi, Princess! I wonder if you miss me like I miss you. My princess, it still hurts so much to think that we never happened. It hurts to think that I can't be with you and you can't be with me. It hurts more when I have to fake every little thing whenever I'm near you. That's why I have to leave while I can still handle my feelings for you.

Remember when we bumped at each other in the cafeteria last week? I still think about it. I should've at least said, 'Hi,' but the words just wouldn't come out of my mouth. It's like I wanna hug you but my feet won't come any closer to you; it's like I wanna forget you but my mind would keep on remembering you.

Do you still remember when I first met you? We met because we share the same interest. And one of the things I liked about you is that you're very opposite to what I am.

You are this talkative girl who wouldn't run out of ideas to talk about, I find you really cute because of that reason.

Remember when you called me late at night and told me about this girl that you liked? It was the time that I realized that I liked you too. No, scratch that cuz I had actually fallen for you.

I should've realized that the reason why I am always nervous whenever I saw you was because I had started to like you. I should've realized that the reason why I wanted to see you, even when I feel like I'm melting, was because I liked you. I should've realized that the reason why I'm sad whenever we're together was the fact that I was scared to tell you how I feel because I'm afaid of rejection.

I'm afraid I'll be rejected just because you're a girl and I am too. I did't know how you'd respond if I ever confessed to you. And I am afraid I'd lose our friendship if I ever did that...

I'm sorry if I was scared, I'm sorry for being such a coward, I'm sorry for hiding how I feel, I'm sorry cuz I left, I'm sorry for not telling you say good bye, and I'm sorry for being sorry.

I know I don't deserve you because you don't deserve a coward like me but I will always be here for you. I love you...though it may be too late. I love you, my princess. Be happy with her. I am now letting you go even though you've never been mine.

Nayeon