false hope; joshler [✔]

July 24th

I have a feeling today is going to be a good day.
I don't know why exactly, but I just do.
After getting dressed this morning I immediately came to see you.
Maybe today is the day.
The day you wake up.
I've waited a month for this day and I'm ready.
I'm ready to see your beautiful face.
Your beautiful dark chocolate eyes that I find myself always getting lost in.
Your dimples that I've missed way too much.
Or the way you'd cock your head in confusion when you didn't understand something.
Oh, but I can't forget about my favorite thing about you.
Your voice.
I miss your voice the most.
I didn't want to tell you this because you'd get mad and think I'm crazy but I've started working extra hours.
I've started working extra hours to pay your phone bill.
The only reason why I'm paying for it now is because of your voice mail.
I listen to your voice mail all the time just to hear your voice.
And when I say all the time I mean
all.
the.
time.
Please wake up.
Please remember me.
Love, Joshua.