Im drowning…. Unable to be free.
I fall helplessly getting consumed by all forms of pain.
What is true happiness? Is it a pleasant feeling of content and delight?I have long forgotten the joyful sensation.
I just stare into the infinite sky, feeling jealous. I wish I could be like the clouds and roam freely through the sky at my own pace with my fellow flying companions. Who am I kidding? Now, im turning crazy, well...thats to be expected. I never had someone i could call a true friend, someone who tells me im going crazy, someone who i can feel at ease with. Am i born into this colossal world to live alone and survive needlessly? why? why me?
Now I drown, deep into the depths of hell.
I have started to hate and despise, started to give up on hope.
Time has collapsed, seconds feel like years and minutes feel like decades.
I have been captured and trapped by my feelings. It is my weakness. A weakness that has turned my life around completely.
My mind is committed with hatred, hatred by emotions, I cannot explain. Good has vanished only specs of happy memories remain.
It was she who stole my happiness. It was she who strangled me with her playful words. Words, I placed my trust and hope in with all. She has forgotten and hasn’t kept her word.
How could I trust? Will I trust once again?
I’m abandoned and left to cry sorrowful tears that wash away small fragments of pain.
But by heart is still cloaked with anguish and regret that shield me from danger. There is a wild fire burning inside, getting larger every second, and waiting to be released. When it has, hatred would have manipulated me completely and the pain which I have grown will have been unleashed. A most repugnant sight awaits... the world itself will shudder by my presence.
For now, I am aware and will not be trampled on, again.
