I just really need to rant right now, so I figured what better place to do so then in a rant book on watt pad?
So, it is currently 1:30 am, which is technically when I'm supposed to be asleep (I'm trying to normalize my sleep schedule) but who needs sleep when there's ranting to do? I will take the fatigue, thank you very much.
I was just going through pinterest looking at all the different pictures of Fall Out Boy, Panic!, etc. that were coming up, until I stumbled upon this one tumblr post. It had a picture of a teary eyed Pete, looking as if he was breaking from the inside out, with the caption "Pete talking about his depression"
WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? I don't need to see this sort of stuff right before I go to sleep! The feels were there and in my face, like an annoying cat. AAAAAHHHHH
And that was just the start.
That set my mind into thinking "He deserved so much better. He's done so much for so many yet he had terrible depression and gets unnecessary amounts of hate from haters and fans alike!!! WHY DOES THE UNIVERSE WORK IN SUCH CRUEL WAYS?!?!?!"
Then, I come across some beautiful pictures of post hiatus Patrick, his giant goofy grin bright enough to blind the sun as he sits at his piano, and that sets my mind up with "WHY IS THIS BEAUTIFUL MAN GETTING HATE?!?! He has done far more good for this world than he has bad, and maybe he isn't perfect, but neither is fucking Harry styles?!? WE ARE ALL JUST HUMANS!!!!"
And looking at his face all smily and precious, I thought about the fact that he was once depressed. He was once not happy with himself. He sang like other people to cover his voice, so that he didn't have to deal with his supposedly "bad" (his thoughts, not mine) voice! He was self conscious about his weight which he only gained through depression!!
So, at this point, I'm a blubbering mess. I am crying and wishing that I could have been there to comfort these two amazing men who have helped me through so much, who have saved a sliver of my sanity, no matter how little and slender. I just wish I could be there best friends. I want to have coffee with them, text them a funny joke that I had just made up, no matter how stupid.
So, even though I'm supposed to be learning the lyrics to a song which I'm supposed to have memorized by tomorrow or sleeping, I'm ranting about these two guys over the age of thirty who don't even know I exist. This is what I mean when I say that Fall Out Boy is the "upside to my downfall"
Anyways, thanks for reading ! Comment your opinions and I'll try to respond!!
-Full Moon Pills
