"Hey Lian, I can't see you today, I need to finish my work. Sorry."
"Okay." I heaved a deep sigh and ended the call.
I rolled myself like a burrito and did crazy fucking things.
My boyfriend prioritizes his work more than me. College palang kami pero kung mag trabaho siya akala mo naman kung may binubuhay na pamilya.
"Haaaaay." I continued rolling until my phone rang.
I was hoping that it was Cohen, but I frowned when I saw my mom calling.
"Bakit po?"
"Sa Sunday pa ako makakauwi. Bantayan mo yang mga kapatid mo jan, kailangan naming tapusin yung inspection ng project namin. Be a good girl. Bawal pumunta si Cohen jan, naiintindihan mo?"
I rolled my eyes.
"Okay ma. Pasalubong namin, HAHA!"
My mom hissed from the other line,
"Tsaka na ako bibili, puro ka kain hindi ka naman tumataba."
"Fine. Bye mama! Ingaaaat."
She ended the call without even saying goodbye. Bastos talaga, de joke haha.
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I woke up 5 in the morning to jog, It had been months since my last exercise.
Kaya pala nagkaka-baby fats na ako, huhu.
Sinilip ko muna sila Korryn bago ako lumabas, binilin ko na rin si manang na tignan muna yung mga kapatid ko.
At ng ready na ako, kinuha ko si Vince (yung aso namin) siya kasi yung lagi kong kasama every time. Niregalo siya sakin ng lolo ko nung 16th birthday ko hihi. 2 years na siya sakin e, and he's a husky hihi.
I texted Cohen that I'd go for a jog, magagalit yun kasi ayaw niyang lumalabas ako ng ganito kaaga, pero 11 pa naman yun ng umaga magigising e, haha.
Quarter to 8 na ako natapos kasi naki-taebo pa ako sa mga lola sa park.
I took off Vince's leash and let him play around.
I was drinking my water when someone tapped my back.
"Is this yours?"
I was dumbfounded because I'm not sure if this is really him or just my imagination.
"Y-yes, akin to. San mo napulot?"
He pointed the tree kung saan ko nilapag yung tumbler ko kanina,
"Ow, t-thank you." I smiled and turned my back again, I was about to walk but he poked me again.
"You owe me, you know that?"
Bakit ba hindi ako matigiltigilan ng malanding lalaking to? Tapos na nga kami e, bumabalik pa.
"Jade, wag ako please? We're already done. Hindi ka ba maka move-on? San na ba yung nilalandi mo? Iniwan ka rin?"
He rolled his eyes.
Aba't-
"Lian, I'm really sorry for what happened to the both of us. But trust me, I really loved you back there! Umalis ako kasi may inayos akong problema. Sorry kung ngayon lang ako nag explain sayo, because eveytime I do it, lagi kang gumagawa ng paraan para hindi kita makausap."
"Kasi yun lang yung paraan para hindi ako masaktan ulit! Hindi ako tanga Jade, alam ko na may iba kana. Kaya ako na nga yung lumayo sayo diba? Please naman, lubayan mo na ako. Tapos na tayo e."
The pain I felt 2 years ago is still here. Aaminin ko, hindi pa ako nakakapag move-on, pero alam ko sa sarili ko na wala na akong pakialam sakanya, ewan ko ba kung bakit ayaw kong bitawan yung mga memories namin. Haaaaay.
"Okay. I admit that I was a asshole before, but believe me that your the only girl that I dated seriously. Please Lian? Just give me another shot. Please?"
Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tanga ba 'to o ano, hindi makaintindi e.
"Are you even listening to me? Ayoko na nga e. Sinaktan mo na ako," Pinipigilan kong umiyak kasi ayokong malaman niya na hindi parin ako tapos sa pag momove-on.
He was about to touch me but someone pulled my arm. And in the blink of an eye, I saw Jade lying on the ground.
"C-cohen?"
"Diba sinabi ko sayo na wag kang makikipag-usap kung kani-kanino?"
"Hindi ko siya kinausap, binalik niya lang yung wallet ko."
Jade stood up ang wiped the small blood on his lips, he was looking at me intently. I hope that Cohen won't make another scene. Ang dami kasing tao, puro matatanda.
"I thought so. Ikaw yung pinalit niya sakin?" He took a step closer and whispered,
"I'll get her back, watch me."
Then he walked away leaving both of us.
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Pagkatapos ng incident dun sa park, hinila niya ako papunta sa unit niya.
Nararamdaman kong mag kakaroon nanaman kami ng away dahil kay Jade. Hay jusme.
Simula kasi nung nalaman niya yung buong kwento namin, ayaw na ayaw niyang binabanggit or naririnig yung pangalan ni Jade. Siya pa yung mas bitter kesa sakin no?
Cohen was dragging me until we reached his unit.
He opened the door and forced me to go inside, he pinned me to the wall and looked at me like he was about to burst in anger.
"Haven't I told you that you shouldn't be talking to him?!"
Nag dadalawang isip ako kung sasagutin ko siya o tatahimik nalang ako, pero bahala na. I don't want him thinking that I still have that damn feelings for Jade.
"He was the one who approached me,"
His face went closer, and fuck. I can almost feel his breath. Siguro kung kayo yung nasa sitwasyon ko, imbis na kiligin kayo, baka matakot pa kayo. Iba kasi siya magalit e, tss.
"But you still talked to him."
"I know. Im sorry."
Cohen's really not in a good mood today, hindi naman kasi siya magagalit ng ganito basta basta e, maybe there's another reason why he's like this. Umagang umaga, galit na agad. I really hate him for being like that. He don't know how to control his anger.
"I'm sorry, hindi ko naman kasi alam na siya yung makakapulot ng wallet ko. Nagulat rin naman ako."
Para matapos na yung away namin ako nalang yung magpapakumbaba, ako naman kasi lagi e.
Umupo siya sa sofa na mukhang stressed na stressed. I just followed him and rested my head on his shoulder.
"Is there a problem you wanna talk about?"
Cohen just sighed and wrapped his arms around me.
"Wala," he said then kissed my forehead.
"Okay." I replied and closed my eyes.
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Umuwi muna ako nung malapit ng maglunch, baka kasi hanapin ako nila manang, isumbong pa ako ng kapatid ko kay mama, Sumbungero kasi si Aeron, kay bata-bata.
Dumiretso ako sa kusina, nakita ko sila Korryn na kumakain kasama si manang.
"Tinanghali kana iha, san ka galing? Hinahanap ka ng kapatid mo."
"Pasensya na manang, nagkaroon kasi ng gulo dun sa may park."
Buti wala si Aeron, baka mahampas ko yun pag binara yung palusot ko.
"A ganun ba? Sige, kumain kana hindi ka pa yata kumain ng almusal,"
After lunch, nagpahinga muna ako then umakyat na sa kwarto. I took a quick shower and texted Cohen that I'll take a nap.
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Falling Out of Love
Любовные романы"Once you love someone, you'll love them forever. People fall out of trust, intimacy, and respect, not love." But how will you not fall out when everything's falling out of place?
