I Was Damaged

I am Damaged

I am Damaged

'I am damaged,' He said, pain rushed through his body, pain he'd never imagined before 'far too damaged' he laughed a little, even if he survived this gun shot he'd be dead or in jail tomorrow morning. 'but, you're not beyond repair' the only thing wrong with her is she thought she was better off dead. She was wrong, she had her whole life ahead of her, she'd go to some college, perhaps find some law student, finally be happy, marry a lawyer, have a life, but him, he was doomed from the start, destined to go nowhere. 'Veronica, please hand over the bomb.' he said in a panicked voice. 'You could stick around here, make things better' he added, it was true, she was in fact next in line for top dog with Heather Chandler gone. 'I've been beaten fair and square' he said. 'JD what are you doing?' she said, refusing to hand over the bomb. 'Veronica, you've got your whole life ahead of you. you can go somewhere in life, be somebody. Even if I live to see the morning it'll be in a jail cell.' he said. 'No, JD, I can't give you the bomb, you deserve to live, I can't live with myself, after what happened with Heather, and Kurt, and Ram I don't think I can survive, my conscious is too heavy.' she said, her head heavy and eyes filled with tears. 'Veronica, none of this is your fault. I brought you into this and I need to be taken out.' he said moving closer to her slowly in an attempt to grab the bomb. She held onto it harder than ever. They played tug-o-war with the bomb for a few minutes before Veronica had to let go. 'Fine, you win.' she said 'are you happy?' she threw her arms in the air. 'please stand back now' he said in an almost harsh, but caring voice. She took a few steps back, 'little further, I'm not really sure what this thing will do' he said, he didn't know the sheer power of the bomb, he was worried it might harm her. 'I really hope you'll miss me, I really wish you'd kiss me, then you'd know that I worship you, Veronica. I'd trade my life for yours' his voice softened 'oh my god JD what are you doing?' she said worried 'd-don't you know how to defuse the bomb?' he laughed 'our love is god,' he whispered 'our love is god,' he repeated louder. 'our love is god,' he shouted this time. Realizing what he was doing and the countdown on the timer approaching zero she had to have his final words 'say hi to god.' she felt the ground shake under her, a loud noise deafened her for a few seconds, leaving her ears ringing afterwords, a blinding explosion appeared right in front of her. A few tears fell down her ash covered face. He was gone. Everyone in the gym had to have felt the ground shaking, you saw them file out and the confused looks on their face. They must have thought it was an earthquake but when they got outside it was very clear it was not an earthquake. The large hole in the ground, the ash everywhere. The remaining Heathers came up to Veronica, 'you look like hell' Duke said. 'Yeah? I just got back.'

September 1st, 1990

Dear, Diary

I'd like to think I'm a good person but due to the events that took place late last year and early this year, I don't know how true that is. I'd also like to think that there's in good in everybody and that's true to an extent I guess. JD had his redeeming features I guess, nobody is truly evil but some people get pretty close. College is not paradise and I would've been better off I had been dead by June. I never got my letter from Harvard, Duke, or Brown. I got my diploma yes but for now I'm going to a community college to earn some credit and I guess I'll reapply next year.

She closed her diary and threw it across the room. A red apparition appeared right on top of her book 'Hey watch it' she heard the apparition say. She backed up near the wall on her bed. 'W-what's h-happening.' she stuttered in fear. 'Relax' said the figure, fixating into something she could make out. A person. A person she knew. Heather Chandler. It couldn't be, she was dead, she had been for almost a year at this point. 'W-what are you doing here?' she said, 'how are you here? I have so many questions' she said. 'you might have a lot of questions but I don't have many answers' Heather stood in her normal, arms crossed, pose. 'What are you doing here?' Veronica said, looking Heather dead in the eyes. 'I'm not sure really, I got bored sitting around singing Kum Ba Yah in Heaven and I decided I would come and find out what you were doing' she rubbed her head 'maybe my friends could help explain it but I really doubt it' she sighed as two more red and blue apparitions appeared, after a minute they appeared as two more people. Kurt Kelly and Ram Sweeney. She gave Heather a dirty look 'yeah, I doubt they'll be much help too' Kurt and Ram faked an upset look 'Ouch, Veronica' they said in unison 'that hurt me here.' Kurt said, pointing to his heart. 'right in the ego.' Ram laughed

A few minutes and a heart attack later she finally began to realize what was actually happening. There were three ghosts, of three people that she had killed. Well not her exactly. JD had done most of the killing but her conscious refused to look at it like that. 'So, you all are just ghosts, and you're here simply to stalk me?' she said. 'pretty much' Heather said. 'great' she groaned. 'At least with me gone, and no JD to hold you back you finally got my spot, Duke was pretty upset when you took over but she got it over it, she'll to submit to anything you say' Heather said, rolling her eyes. It was true, Heather Duke was never meant to take Heather Chandler's position, she was simply too submissive, she didn't give orders, she took them. 'So, if you're haunting me now I'm guessing the ghost of JD's just gonna pop right out of thin air and ask if I want a slushy, right?' she said, hopeful she would get to see him one last time. 'I'm not sure, I didn't even know tweedle dee and tweedle dum were going to appear.' Heather said, quite unsure of herself. 'Interesting,' Veronica said to herself. 'You best get used to this, you're not going to live this down. I'll ensure that even though I'm dead I'll still be a big part of your life" she laughed before fading away. 'see you 'ronica' Kurt and Ram said in unison before fading after Heather Chandler.