I KNOW YOU

There is this girl at school, we know each other since we
were kids but we never talked before...
She is different than the others...
I always look at her, she was interesting because you never knew what this girl was going to do or how she was going to appear the other day.
If you pay a little bit of attention i think you can see it in her eyes...
Thats something funny cause the only thing this girl wasnt its expressive but you can always know how she feels if you look at her eyes.
Most of time she was just sitting  along at class or at break times, just thinking or listening to music...she never ceard being alone.
That were the days when she fell angry, sad or lonely.
Maybe all together
Other days she was just like stable,not sad, not happy, just as if nothing mattered anymore...
Then you see her the other day and she is smiling,just smiling,without reason.
Just smiling and it was so genuine...
I always though that she was hidding something huge but everybody just tell me that i was overiacting.
I also always though that she was a fake person because how a person could be so many things that easily and just decide to be most of the time the sad version of herself?Where does it leves all of us?
But there are moments for example in class when you can see piecies of her personality,her real personality..
Like when she is boring she always take a paper and start drawing .
Sometimes she draw simple things,like flowers,or hearts but other times she draw bigger things like the face of a person,or a landscape and basically it is artwork.
Other times she just write names of songs, all diferents kinds of songs,from pop to rock or she just write numers,more specificly two numbers.
23 and 1.
Or maybe when she walk home from school she always listen to music...but the interesting thing its that she always listen one song per day.
Just one song....the same song,over and over again...
There are rumors about her of course, its High School...
The thing its that she never cared or at least she never show it...
She was strong, but it was the kind of stregh you find in someone old,someone that has seen everything.
The kind of stregh you should never see on a 17 girl...
She has something...but honestly i never discover what it is.
If i have to say something about her family i dont have much, she never talk about it.
She has two siblings but she doesnt seem to talk to them at all. Her mother is the headteacher of the school but most of the time I think she avoiding her, or something.
And his father...I don't know,he never show up.
I don't know if his family is the cause for her to be as she is.
Despite everything I don't think it is.
I know what all of you are thinking...that I'm a coward because I never talk to her.
I never ask her the millon question I have.
And maybe Iam a coward but what can I do?
Nothing
She is always lost but nobody never notice...and I can't do anything for her because I'm not better.
The difference it's that I can't choose being like this, this version of myself, it's just me, and I can't take it back.
But she can...
I guess it's that what I always envy her,the opportunities.
That its something I never have...
Im telling this because if you want to know my story you have to know the girl that changed it.
The girl that could change the entire fucking world, but instead of that she changed me.