My Brother Is Kim Jongdae

Awards

Boyoung comes into wake me up the next morning. I don't know how I feel about not waking up to Jongin kissing my face. Oh yeah, Jongin. I'm the biggest asshole and idiot alive at this very moment. My day is kinda a blur, I think Alyssa brought me one of my shakes, I'm not sure though. I don't think I eat anything for the next couple of days. Honestly, I could've been murdered and I wouldn't have noticed. My life just seems so numb without him in it. About a week after our breakup, I find Taemin in the break room when I go to find something to eat.

"Hey Taemin!"

"You seem better than him"

"What?"

"I'm talking about Jongin"

"I know, but what do you mean I'm better than him?"

"He came to see me right after it happened, and he started talking to me more when he went on tour, a little backwards if you think about it. Anyway, he's a piece of crap right now, he looks horrible and fans are getting angry. They don't like seeing him like that, maybe more than you or I, they have started posting everywhere that they hate whoever did it to him. Don't worry, he's gone out and said things like "It isn't her fault, it's mine" and "Please don't be mad at her, I'm the one who ended things". He still really cares for you, I hope you know that"

"I do now, thanks Taemin"

"You had a doubt? He loved you more than he loves his family, and now he's lost"

"Taemin, I get it. I'm a screw up, I messed up my good thing, real bad."

I feel tears start to run down my face, so I turn to leave, but he catches me before I can and pulls me into his chest wrapping one arm around my back, the other holding my head securely to his chest.

"Taemin, will you stay with me? Please? I need support, other than my group"

"Yeah, go back to practice, I'll be there in a minute"

"Okay"

I wipe my eyes before jumping in with the dance they were doing. We debuted five months ago and we are already working on a comeback, we just released one song yesterday and it has received a great response from the fans. We are practicing and the door opens, revealing Taemin and the rest of SHINee. The girls all stop and have a fangirl moment.

Over the past couple of weeks I have become really close to Taemin, and pretty close to the rest of SHINee, especially Jonghyun. Tonight we have our first award show for the new song. Taemin couldn't be there tonight, SHINee has a different schedule. As far as I've heard EXO isn't going to be there. I haven't seen them all for close to a year. I have talked to Dae, Minseok, and Kris over the phone though. Tonight is very important for us, if we win, this will be not only our first award for this song, but our first award in general. The award we are up for is the last award of the night, we wait the entire show until it's time. They come out on stage and get ready to present the award, they ask all of the nominees to come up on stage. I hear all of the fans cheering for their favorite groups, I hear our fans start cheering louder than all of the other ones, but I don't hear anything after they say that we won.

I can't help but do anything except for cry and bend down. This is it, this moment right here, is what all of us have sacrificed things for. I can't stop the tears from falling down my face. I feel myself being yanked off of the ground, and I look up and see Alyssa trying to pull me up. I stand up, assisting her in her task and hug her until she can't breathe. The next and only other person I hug is Boyoung. She is the leader of our group and she has acted like it the whole way, even more since my breakup with Kai. They give us the award and now, at least two of us have to speak. Boyoung goes up first because she is the leader.