(Ha you thought. I'm still going to write this book anywayssss (I'm changing the characters name to Vanessa)) I put the pills back into the cabinet and I turned around and gripped my hand on the cold, steel, doorknob. My head was down facing the ground. I pulled my head up to get the hair out of my eyes and to get them from sticking to my face. (Idk if this made sense lol) when I flung my head up, Grayson was standing there. "Oh sorry Vanessa, I didn't see you there. I was just going to grab some-" he was focusing on his phone and then put his head up. He looked down at me and he was so intimidating...man... "Hey, what's wrong?" I sniffled and intertwined my fingers together. "I uh- it's uh- it's nothing grayson..." holding back all of my tears. "No, call me gray and no it's not nothing. I used to date a girl who said oh it's nothing don't worry like all the time." He let out a small but deep laugh. I chuckled a little bit and I said,"Okay..I'll tell you if you promise me one thing..." he grabbed my hands and his large, warm hands held mine. "I promise." I was thinking about so many things right now...he's so sweet, he's so nice, he's so funny, but there is one thing- "Anything is safe with me." I didn't understand that last part so I let out a quiet,"W-what?" He repeated himself," I promise. I won't tell anyone you know that. I would never do that to you. Anything is safe with me." "Oh-" I sniffles and took my hands from the warm cage that he was making with his hands around mine and I put them in my sweatshirt pockets. "I uh- I was going to...uh-" a tear slipped through my eye and fell down on the cold, tile floor. Grayson saw that and he looked worried. "I uh- wanted to commit suicide...." I said hiding my face. Grayson's face went to nice, to funny, to worried. And now, sad. He grabbed me and wrapped me into a warm hug. I slipped my hands around his torso and grabbed his back. "Vanessa, why did you do this-" I cut him off before he could say anything else. "Your fans. They told me mean stuff." "I'm so sorry about that Vanessa..they can be mean and overprotective sometimes..." he said looking down at me. "I know I just-" the door burst open and Ethan ran in. "Vanessa, get out here now please." I stopped hugging gray and I followed Ethan. He walked beside me and grabbed onto my hand. "Ethan, what are you doing?" He brought me into his room, motioned me to sit down, and he shut the door. He sat on the bed beside me. "I heard you crying in the bathroom before, why did you come to me instead of grayson?" "He came in before you and I was bawling." I said rubbing my hands. "Just go to me anytime you need to talk baby girl...okay?" He said with a concerned look on his face. Those words. 'Baby girl'. Ugh they killed me every time I hear them. They're like angels playing the harps.
"Okay thank you Ethan." I said hugging him. He hugged me back instantly. "Anytime. I love you baby." He said with his nose in my hair. "I love you too.." we stopped hugging and we looked into each other's eyes. He looked my face up and down. Starting from my eyes ending on my lips. He licked his lips and bit his lip in one fluid motion. He put his hand on my head and he kissed me. He kissed me hard but passionately. I stopped the kiss and got up. "Hey, what are you doing?" He said sadly. "I'm just checking my phone why? " I said pointing to my phone on his desk. "Oh nothing. I sorta uh- wanted to continue..." he said shyly. "Continued what? Making out?" I said while picking up my phone. I pushed the home button and I had three notifications. All from grayson.
Grayson🙉: hey don't tell Ethan, but I really like our hug.
Grayson🙉:where'd you go?
Grayson🙉: okay then. See you later.
I cleared all of my messages and set down my phone. I walked up to Ethan finally hovering over him while he was sitting down. I picked up his hand and held them for a few seconds. I grabbed tighter and said,"hey let's get up big boy." He groaned,"ugh just a few more minutes?" "Of what?" I said with a soft chuckle escaping my mouth. "Just sitting ya' know?" "Ohh okay." I replied. I was still standing up while Ethan let go of my hands and grabbed the back of my thighs. He spread them and it forced me to sit down on his lap. My legs crossed behind his back as an instinct. He grabbed my face and started to plant kisses all over my neck. He moved his way up to my lips and we both fell on our sides. We rolled over so I was on the bottom and Ethan was on top of me. "Is this what you wanted to continue?" I say out of breath. "Yeah of course." He replied bending down and kissing me some more. He pushed his tongue into my mouth and he pulled at the hem of my shirt not breaking the kiss. "Hey guys, mom said dinner is rea-" Ethan and I sat up and looked at the door. My shirt was lifted up just a little and obviously my skin was so much paler underneath my shirt. Grayson focused his attention on my stomach where you could see my skin. Ethan sat up and hovered over him. He whispered something to grayson and Grayson nodded with fright. Ethan walked back to me pulled my shirt down covering my skin and grabbed my hand. "Let's eat Vanessa." I pushed myself up and Ethan wrapped his hand around my waist. It looked like he was showing off to Grayson. "Uh- okay." I said as Ethan and I walked downstairs holding hands.
