More then friends // Nichorello AU

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Nickys POV

I hop out of bed. It's now 4pm. I can't let myself sleep anymore, I don't want to think about Lorna anymore. It's never going to happen.

No one will ever love me. I should make something to eat, but I can't be bothered to eat. I just lay on the couch, and stare at the ceiling, letting all my thoughts drain me of energy to move.

I need heroin. No Nicky! You need to stay clean. But why? There's no point anymore. He left you. He doesn't care anymore.

I feel my eyes shutting again, and I doze off again. This time there is no dreams, only darkness.

I wake up and look at the clock, it's now 7:30am the next morning. I slept for 14 hours!! I'm such a lazy ass. I need coffee, that Lorna better not be working there again. I need to go shopping and get some more so I don't have to go out every morning and get a coffee.

I don't even change, I just walk out the door and pray Lorna isn't there.

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I walk in and the line is huge, bloody hell I'll be here all morning. I see the pairs of eyes staring at me, I know I look like crap, but I couldn't care less. I needed coffee otherwise I'll have no energy yet again.

"Next plea... Oh double shot mocha?"

Fuck me. It was that accent again. Lorna.

"Yep, and get it right this time" I snapped back. I couldn't stop staring at her though. Her red lipstick made her lips look so delicious. Oh god Nicky, stop!

"Here you go.. Nicky was it?"

"Yea, thanks"

I retreat to a small table in the corner of the shop, away from most of the crowd. I stare at my cup, I can't bring myself to drink it. I feel sick inside. I can feel someone approaching me, but I refuse to speak to anyone. I just want to be alone.

"Is the mocha fine?"

Lorna. I can see the chair being pulled up across from me.

"Are you alright? You look like you had a rough night"

"Yea, I'm fine" I don't look up.

"It's ok, you don't have to tell me, I'm just a stranger"

I keep my head down.

"Look, I'm finishing up my shift soon, how about we go for a walk? You look like you need some company."

"Ok" I said, I couldn't meet her eyes.

She walked away, as I continued to stare at nothing.

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20 minutes passed and Lorna walked up to me again.

"So, do you wanna go?"

"Ok" I said, getting up slowly. I felt so lightheaded and dizzy.

Lorna and I walked downtown in silence, I could feel her staring at me as we walked.

"Let's go to the park. It's just around the corner" Lorna said, finally breaking the silence. I continued to follow her, not saying anything.

We got to the park, and she led me to a bench and sat down a bit away from me, but then she moved closer and put her arm around me.