More then friends // Nichorello AU

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Nickys POV

I lay there, shit I've hit a whole new low. I just had sex with someone I just met a day ago. Wow, I've hit a new low. But I trust Lorna already. She admitted her feelings and she took me in when no one else would.

"So, Lorna, I think..... I'm ...... ready to tell you about..... my scars"

Oh man, this will be tough.

"Ok. As long as your comfortable, you don't have to tell me everything.."

"I need to. I've never told anyone before. And for some reason I trust you enough to tell you this"

Here I go,

"So you probably picked up on that those cuts are something I did to myself, and I don't really know why I do it but I can't stop."

I'm about to burst into tears, but you move closer to me and hug me close to you.

"I've been doing it since I was 14, but every time someone has tried to help, I won't accept it. I can't. No one understands all the pain I've gone through, I don't even understand it myself most of the time. But I've gotten worse ever since I got married to Joel, who divorced me a month ago because he was sick of me relapsing into self harm and using heroin. He made me feel worse, he never offered to talk to me about it, and never asked if I was ok, and I don't have any friends so I couldn't talk to anyone. And my family is awful to me so I don't talk to them anymore. But then I met you and you actually cared, and now I guess I'm here telling you all this."

I can't tell you anymore, I break down into tears and you hug me harder.

"Oh Nicky, I'm so sorry. I promise I will always be here for you."

I continue to cry and you just hold me. I feel guilty that I haven't told you everything, but I can't speak of it. You then help me up off the couch and help me to your bed. You toss me a singlet to wear to bed. You pull back the covers and help me in. You hop into the other side of the bed, and I fall asleep snuggling up against you.