spring day || kim namjoon.

04.

A few weeks went by.

Sohye and Namjoon were basically inseparable. They hungout almost everyday.

They were best friends. But Namjoon felt guilty.

Guilty that he still have not shared with her, why everyone hated him. It was a horrid reason, and he knew that if he told her. She might slip away in the matter of seconds.

He cried at night, imagining all of the things that could happen.

But he loved her, and that meant that she had to know before his window would close, forever.

They were at the park, it was close to midnight.

"Hey, Sohye. I want to tell you something." He looked down. "It's about why everyone hates me."

She suddenly looked at him, "Okay. Go ahead." Even she didn't know what she would feel after this story. He's been hiding it so long, it must've been something bad, she thought.

"It was about a year ago. I hurt someone. I didn't know that what i said or did hurt him so much." His voice got shaky. He was petrified of saying this story out loud.

"I used to be popular, a lot of girls liked me, i had a lot of guy friends, my parents didn't hate me. I was happy and content with life, but i was also mean. There was a boy, who is like me the way i am now, nobody bothered him, but he wasn't made fun of. He was so nice to everyone, just was afraid of social interaction. But one day, i was already upset about something and he got in my way and it made me even more angry. So, i hurt him." He paused, taking a deep breath.

"I punched him, and kicked him. Just because i was angry. Not at him, but at something else. He didn't deserve the beating i gave him, he didn't deserve the names i called him after that, everyday until he finally left the school. I bullied him so bad, and so horribly that he just left to save himself from a monster like me. After that, people started rumors that he killed himself because of me, everyone believed it. To this day, i still don't know if that's true or not. So, they made it a game to make me feel the way he felt. To see if i liked it. To destroy my life." She looked at him with pain, and betrayal.

"I deserve it, Sohye. I don't deserve you as a friend, i don't deserve anyone as a friend." He finished, looking at her. Seeing the disgust in her eyes, was enough to tell him that nothing would be the same. She was going to leave.

And she did. She got up, and left him sitting there. Not saying anything.

When she was gone, he broke out into a crying mess. "I'm so sorry."

He kept muttering so many negative things to himself. Little did he know, she was still there. Out of his sight, listening to everything he was saying.

"God, i want to die. I don't want to feel this pain anymore. I just want to be dead." He screamed.

Her heart broke hearing the things he was saying, she wanted to help him.

But then again, she didn't. She didn't want to help him, she wanted him to feel the pain. Wanted him to feel the way that boy felt.

Without another thought, she left him at that park.