MANAN: Unbearable Pain of Love

CHAPTER 20

AVOID MISTAKES PLEASE...

NANDINI POV

Waves..beach...my favourite spot. Its brings peace in me. Make me content and stress free. Sometime they brings best in me. I like watching these waves, just looking and gazing over them . I don't know what came into me that I ask him to bring me here. We are not even in good talking terms, I behave like a strange to him coz I don't him to cross the boundary which I create around myself . I dont want to connect with anyone , I don't to make friends , I don't want to make stranger a part of my life, I don't want any expectation from my anyone coz I know at the end I will get hurt with those expectations. He asked me for friendship and I denied coz I don't believe anymore in making new friends. If this same question was asked me before one year I happily answered that person in Yes, but now I don't want to create new friendship, and new relations. I know I behave so rude but cant be polite with everyone like before.

I was lost in my thoughts with those waves, when I feel a cold hand over mine. I look at my hand and then at the person..its him. I look at him confusingly and take my hand back from his hold.

M: Nandini..Nandini..Nandini...

N:huhhh...

M: where are u lost ????

N(lostly); in these waves..they come and go forever in this way, without being cared by others.Like this we also go on and on till our breathe, without being cared by others but with one hope that everything will come out best.

M: ummm...Nandini Are u hungry ??

N: huh...

M(innocently): I am damn hungry...tum pani puri khaogi mere saath

N: okay

NANDINI POV END

They both started to eat pani puri, Nandini stuff her first pani puri inside her mouth. Manik look at her, and smile..

N(while munching): Bhaiya...thoda tikha or

M(with wide eyes): nandini..its already spicy

N(cutely): No..wanted some more spicy

They ate pani puri like hungry peoples from years . Manik give up on 12, but Nandini was still eating he look at her in amaze, and started to admire her big puffy cheeks and pouty lips. Finally she gave up on 17 with sniffling with spicyness . She pass a small smile to him, and take out her purse to pay cash.

M: Hey..what are u doing??

N(politely): paying for what we ate..

M: hey..stop..stop ok I will pay..its our first treat

N: Arre..par..I can

M: please...I will pay

Manik pay for them and came back to her who is looking at a happy family .

M: wanna eat something else

N( with her head down): ummm....ice-cream

M(smilingly): okay

Silently they came to Ice-cream Parlour. In this noise also, these souls are silent .

M: which flavor ??

N: plane vanilla

M(to shopkepper): 2 vanilla

Nandini was waiting outside the shop, standing with the support of car bonnet. In few minutes Manik came and gave her the ice cream. She smile looking at her ice-cream, a genuinely smile of Nandini. She started to eat ice-cream with her hands with a small baby smashing it all around her mouth. Manik again look at her in amusement, he again started to admire her, he silently took out his phone and click her pics. She was so engrossed in it that she didn't look that Manik is clicking her photos . She finish it soon and look towards him who is already looking at her..

N(cleaning ice-cream from her mouth ): Aapki ice-cream melt ho gyi

M: haa...vo ice-cream (and indicate on corner of her lips)

She try to clean it but didn't wipe the ice-cream from the right spot. Manik nodded in no, telling her that ice-cream is still there. She try few more times but at wrong place. Finally Manik take the tissue and come closer to her, Nandini look at him confusingly. Manik look in her eyes and forward his hand and wipe off the ice-cream. She look first in his chocolaty eyes but then at his hand and long fingers which are almost touching her soft lips.

Manik nodded in approval and ate his half melted ice-cream all the way looking towards her, but her eyes and mind is somewhere else. Soon he finish his ice-cream and called out for her..

N: Ab hume chalna chahiye , der ho rhi h

The ride to her house was perfectly silent, again both didn't utter a single word. Nandini told him the road name, not address of her house. She make him stop car at the square near her house. She came out of the car..

N(softly): thank u and Good Night 

She didn't came to her flat, but today she came to her parents house. At present she was confuse, nervous , upset and lost. She need someone, she need someone who understand her, she need someone who listen her, she need someone who console her over the situation, she need her sister . She quickly message Sanjh to open the door. As its little late , chacha-chachi and amma-appa were already slept so Sanjh take her inside the house and lock it properly.

N(with faint smile): Hiii..

Sa: chal room me..

N: sab so gye kya?

Sa: ha..sab so gye , ye le change kar le

She gave clothes to Nandini and close the door. Nandini came out of washroom after changing and look at Sanjh who is sitting on the bed and using her mobile. She came and lay down putting her head in Sanjh's lap. Sanjh look at Nandini with a small smile and started to stroke her hairs lightly. Nandini look at her for few second but then again look down and close her eyes...

Sa(politely): Nandu..

N(with close eyes): hmmm..

Sa: kya hua?? Kya baat h jo tujhe pareshan kar rahi hai

N: Aatit...Aatit uske saaye kabhi hamara peecha nhi chodte na, vo hamesha humse jude rehte hai. Aatit ke yaade hume kamjoor kar deti hai, humara Aatit humare halaat badal deta h. Hum kabhi uske saaye se dur nhi ho pate..

Sa(creasing her hairs): Aatit ki konsi cheeze tumhare aaj me wapas aae h Nandu??

N: Music

Sa: Music, vo kabhi tumhara Aatit tha he nhi Nandu. Vo to tumhi me basta hai, tumhari saaso me h vo, or tumhari aakhri saaas tak rahega. Its not a part of ur life, it's a part of you. Ha bhale he tumne khudko usse dur kar diya h par vo..vo ab bhi tumhare saath h. Usse daro maat, usse nervous mt ho , usse bas rehne do uski jagah par. Just let it be.

Nandini smile a little understanding her sister talks and nodded in yes..

Sa(smilingly ): For now, just breathe and have faith in Aiyappa that everything will bring out the best.

Nandini smile and hug her tightly and whisper a thank u in her ears . Both lay down on the bed, holds eachothers hand and soon drift into a sleep.