please don't

Dont

Do you know how hard it is for me babygirl. To see u always in pain like my dad inching yourself further out of my life into heavens doors. Do u know how fucking. Difficult is is watching u put yourself down when all I do is wish some days I were u. Do u know how scary it is trusting someone and knowing they hurt their selves and they may leave u just like your fucking dad did. Do u know how sad it is for me to wonder if one night ull cut to deep and that will be the end. The only way for u not to hurt anymore. No I refuse to let u say that I know u feel pain but your so damn beautiful  and u can't even see it. Everyone else does u know that everyone notices that front u put up and u don't think they do. They see the pain behind your eyes. Everyone has a story let me tell u mine. My dad once upon a time was my best friend until he decided for our friendship to end. I may be really selfish but i don't know how u even think about leaving me behind. But nah its good I always remember  that I always remember  feeling lost empty 😕 why everyone  left me. Please don't do the same your life is worth living. Every tear everyone sheds while they talk to u is another reason to live. A prostitute  on the street could kill their self and it's still going to have meaning. An orphan a hobo anyone in the world can kill their self. But they all still have a million reasons to live. So please don't leave me. Please don't take time out of your life to place that bloody fucking razor against and create more battle scars. Because you'll never know when that last battle scar u draw on your arm could be your last.