MO's jornals

Father's Day Part 1

What are you supposed to do on Father's Day, when your father is not longer with you.

He is no longer on this planet but his memory still lingers. People say to celebrate the love of lost loved ones. But what are you supposed to do you do when you try to celebrate but it just reminds you that.

You.
Lost.
Them.

People always say that there were so many things I still wanted to say to them, like I love you and I miss you or something like you were the best dad.

But that's not what I had in mind, what I want to say to him is that

I am sorry.

I'm sorry I wasn't there when you left the world.

I'm sorry I didn't come back to visit you.

I'm sorry I was so selfish that I thought about how seeing you like that and would scar me for life when in reality how I left you in that hospital is what will breaks me, it's what is branded into my mind.

I'm sorry I didn't answer your calls.

I'm sorry I didn't spend more time with you.

I'm sorry I always stayed in my room when you were down the hall and straight down the stairs

I'm sorry that I put my friends before you.

I'm sorry that you left the world by your self.

I'm sorry that I was to scared to go too.

I'm just so sorry for so many things that my brain feels like it's gonna explode from and the apologys I want to say to you.

You weren't just my dad you were my biggest fan, my number one.

You were my sun and my moon you were my inspiration my idol my, my

best friend.

And now you are just

Gone

With my other best friend and I hope that you help her through this new transition in to the past life. I know you were watching and that you saw it.

I know you were waiting for her.

I saw you, you were caught in the act.

But you already know that, cause you wanted me to know.

- [Daddy's Mo]