First Love Is The Deepest by Gwen

PART 1

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Part 1

GWEN A. CALEIGH

"Your first love is always alive and lives all the time in your heart. How much you try to forget, it never goes away from your heart."

Nama sia Gwen. Born and raised sana K*******. I'm generally a happy child. I'm not from a perfect family though. My parents divorced when I was just 5yo. Reason for their separation, no more love between them I guess. I lived with my mom. She's one lovable, over protective and very very very fierce, no nonsense mom but I love her like no other.

My mother remarried when I was in primary 3, mula-mula sia susah mau terima. My world was already perfect, just my mom and I, there should be nobody else. Itu fikiran sia masa sia budak2lah, tp lama2 sia dapat terima dan faham juga bah. Plus, I have an awesome stepdad so I was happy juga. Itu sikit intro pasal diri sia. This is important coz from here, you'll know why I chose to do what I chose to do in my later life.

Fast forward to my secondary school life but before that, after primary 6, I got a very good result masa upsr, so sia salah satu candidate yg mo kana hantar pg sana SBPL. Tp malangnya, ada ura2 yg my biological father and dia punya family, mau start sudah cari2 sia. Being a protective mother that she is, my mom made a hard decision to 1 : not send me to SBPL (I could've a far more better future if she did I think, sigh), and 2 : to send me to W.Malaysia instead, tempat my stepdad punya brother. I'm not close to my step uncle punya family, pernah jumpa durang beberapa kali lah, his wife urang semenanjung so you can guess how awkward my 1 year of staying there with them lah kan. It's not all hell but it's surely not paradise either. Sia namau cerita banyak pasal tu. Other than the friends that I made there, that's one part of my life yg sia tdk berapa fond of, apa lagi mau share. Skip skip 😅...

Fast forward again. After continuously begging dan drama air mata sama my mom, finally sia dapat juga balik to my hometown, yippie me! Sia kena kasi masuk sana sekolah menengah legend di K******* . Yep you guess it right, if u are also from my hometown, you know which one - yep it's S##G.

Lucky me, ramai my ex primary schoolmate sekolah sana, so it saved me plenty of time mo bekenalan2 semua ni. My stepdad yg urus transfers sia. Initially sia mo kena letak sana kelas numbur 4 kah 5 begitu, tp my sdad knew I deserved better deblang, nah kan, bagus kan beliau sa hehehe. So sia kena letaklah sana class numbur satu, kelas Intelligent. Nah kau, punya tambirang tu nama kelas kan, tp begitulah nama tu kelas hahaha. Stepping in to the class on my first day, I was surprised to see so many familiar faces, ada juga wajah-wajah baru lah, tp sia ni tdk kisah, I'm very easy to make friends, I'm very friendly too, at least kawan2 sia cakap begitu lah. Sia noticed dalam kelas Intelligent ni ada beberapa group, especially the girls lah, they hang out sama clique durang jak, yg mcm ada some sort of initiation or membership application ni klu mau masuk tu group. But after been away from home I learned yg sometimes sendiri lebih baik. So sia mesra sama semua orang dan sia teda apply masuk mana2 group 🤣. I sit next to a cute, petite girl yg later became my bff until now. Her name - Maira Wong. Yup, dia sino dusun. Kici2 tp champion sports, especially basketball, I watched her play, sia rasa kaki dia ada spring Dunlop owh 🤣. Okay other than Maira, I also became close with these gurls, Dianne, Rachel and Precilla. We were inseparable, until now 😊.

Aiyaa, I wanna cut to the chase lah kan. Too long already my intro.

Okay, my first week went by as usual. Nothing special. Masa sia pindah it was already April, so next month tu exam first sem sudah. Dan sia mimang ketinggalan keretapi. Laju pula habis silibus sini skolah baru ni. And I managed to get 12th place saja ni masa exam. I was quite bumped out sbb sia tdk pernah lah terkeluar dari top 5. Honest ni, bukan bikinan 😂

So pasal my first love story ni. Pelik sia rasa coz, I've never been in any relationship before, sbb sia mimang masih budak dan remember my very very very fierce mom? This definitely will be a nonsense to her 😆.

So sia mo cerita laini, first time sia "kenal" my first love ni adalah di tandas, iya tandas perempuan. I tell you, his name was all over the tandas perempuan punya wall and doors. Like "Anu, I Love You" "Anu, can I be your GF, atau kakak angkat pun boleh lah" "Anu, I wanna marry you" etc etc, all mentioning nama si "ANU". Mula-mula sia tdk peduli, time sia pee or poop ada juga lah sia baca luahan hati durang di belakang pintu tu but I thought nothing of it, cuma I can't deny lah, mimang intriguing ni mo taw siapa ni si "ANU" yg jadi pujaan di skolah ni 😂.

Then I noticed, ada satu boy ni, setiap kali dia limpas our class mesti I hear buzzing sounds from the girl group yg sitting siring tingkap, adalah sia dengar "Anu, si Grace kirim salam!!" from the class next door. Sia ada juga tingu lah the boy, good looking (from pandangan siring), smart dan kemas pakaian ni, seluar bell bottom 😂. Tp itu jak first impression sia, belum lagi ambil peduli betul, ini lah klu fikiran telampau suci murni ni 😅😅😅...

So it happened one day, I met this old friend, kami mimang rapat masa sekolah rendah dan sbb nama dia sama dengan nama my sdad Shawn (*bukan nama sebenar) so I jokingly called him "bapa" or "pak" hehehe. Kami tejumpa masa sia limpas their classroom untuk pigi sana school canteen. He called out my name first.

"Ui nak (anak), jumpa juga bapa sama ko aa, ada sia dingar yg ko pindah sini tp tidak saja sia nampak ko ni" - Shawn

"Hai pakkkk!!! Iya bah, sia ada juga nampak ko haritu tp ko jauh bah, takkan sia mo teriak panggil ko kan heheh" - Gwen.

"Makin cute pula ko ni nak, ada boyfriend sudah kah, nasib ko anak sia, klu tidak sia kuntik sudah ko owh" - Shawn.

"(Blushing), cess, ko puji ni ada maksud ni kan, mo minta belanja kah, sorry lah aaa, mummy sia bg duit ngam2 saja untuk sia hahah" - Gwen.

Suddenly, standing beside Shawn, the boy yg haritu limpas di kelas, yg kana phewit kirim2 salam tu.

"Hai (smiling at me), wah si Shawn, mentang-mentang ada cewek cantik ko saturang jak mo kenal lah" - Boy.

"Ui, anak sia ni Eric, c Gwen nama dia, ko jangan cuba-cuba kacau dia aa, ko playboy sama yg lain bulih, sama anak sia jangan cuba-cuba aaa!" - Shawn. There's a hint of "I mean it" in Shawn's voice.

Gosh, Eric pula nama dia. Uit, nama dia lah pula yg kana graffiti all over tandas perempuan tu! And satu kelas pula dia sama si Shawn?!

Eric looked much more handsome face to face, mata redup and very nice smile too. Tinggi. Sia sampai bahu durang dua saja. And that smile. Bikin bedebar jantung tu senyuman dia. Tp kenapa first impression sia sama dia tidak best ni aaa? "Bapa" bilang dia "PLAYBOY"? I think he definitely oozing with that bad boy vibe which made me more curious to know him... Dear heart, if only you knew that you are gonna be in one hell of a roller coaster ride...Hurmmm....TBC...