Before You Walk Out Of My Life💔

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1week later

DaDa

Today was the day i had to clean out Robyn apartment and i ain't really want to. Jeff and Denise was gone watch king until i got back i ain't really wanna leave him with nobody right now he was to young but i had to do what i had to do he wore a black and green nike rumper with matching socks and a beanie. I pulled up to Jeff crib and grabbed King car seat after putting his blanket over it. I knocked on the door and Jeff opened it dabbing me up he laughed and let me in. "Nigga whats funny" i asked . "You nigga still can't believe you a father bro its unbelievable the kid really grew up" Jeff said rubbing my head. "Chill nigga" i said. Denise came running to us. "My baby give him here" she said reaching for his carseat. "He sleep " i said gently handing her King carseat. She ran to the living room and sat down along with his carseat quicly taking the blanket from over him and unbuckling him picking him up. "Why you wake him up" i asked laughing. "He is so adorable " she said talking to King. "You sure you don't want me to roll with you" Jeff asked. "Yeah man im good i need to do this myself imma fuck with ya'll later take care of my son i said dabbing him up and saying by to Denise before leaving. 

I unlocked Robyn apartment door and sighed rubbing my hands down my face. My palms got sweaty real quick soon as i stepped into the apartment. I grabbed a box and start grabbing shit like pictures most of us it was one that was her favorite of us walking on the beach it showed our back her dress and hair blowing in the wind sun shining my baby her shoes were in my hand and i held her hand with my free hand. I laughed at the picture she was being a cry baby that day. I moved to her room and cleaned shit up i looked under her bed to see a small box I grabbed it and sat on the bed opening it seeing a a paper that looked like a letter i opened it

Dear DaDa 

If your reading this i might be gone forever , You know iv'e wrote this letter over 20 times but i could never find the right words to say. Our son will live as i will die , You need him more than you need me when i first met you I knew you weren't fully grown up not saying i got pregnant on purpose but I want you to take care of our boy teach him to be a man to be smart to treat people how you treated me , Teach him to play sports to pray every night to me I'll be watching you guys grow together my boys. My mother Ramona disowned me when she found out i was keeping the baby and giving my life away for something that wasn't even suppose to happen. I wrote her address on a sheet of paper just in case you want to meet her i know she wants to meet you and please accept her in our son's life. Baby names " Prince , Marcus , King , or Jr doesnt matter what you name him just treat him well which i know you will. Don't cry when im gone I want you to smile and live life with our son like you lived it with me . I'll be watching

Love , Robyn

I closed my eyes letting a couple tears fall on my jeans. I grabbed the sheet of paper with her mothers address and number on it i put it in my pocket along with the letter and finished cleaning up before leaving...

August

I woke up thinking about my mama I sighed and wrote my thoughts down on a sheet of paper. my mama was killed right in front of me when i was 15 she was stabbed to death and them nigga's made me watch. My mama was like a friend she taught me everything i know and taught me to stay true. I decided to sing a song about her. I went down the hall in the game room to hook up old music equipment when i finished i looked at the paper

Lyrics

Mama said stay out of trouble , mama said dont be a fool, mama said stay in somebodies church , mama said boy stay in school , mama told me i better get home before the street lights come on . mama always use to cry when i left her maybe cause daddy was gone i still remember the lessons my mama taught me but now its my turn to show you how far they brought me . mama i made it , ouuuuuuuuu yeaaah , mama i made ittttttttttttttt , i could have been locked up i could have been gunned down but i found my own way im not gonna stop now and i hope i made you proud mama said stay humble mama said stay humble mama said stay true , mama said boy keep that drama far away form you mama said keep working busting on to the future mama told me she lost one and ain't trying to lose 2 . but i had to find my way and i had to give my all mama ain't always right but she never led me wrong i dont know if imma make it big but i know that i made it out i know i didnt make it easy i know you had your doubts i still remember the lessons my mamam taught me now its my turn to show you how far they brought me mama i made it ouuuuuuu yeah , mama i made itttttttttttt, i could have been locked up  i could been gunned down i found my own way i aint gonna stop now mama i made it and i hope i made you proud mama i made ittttttt, ouuuuuu, mama i made it ouuuuuuuu yeah , i  coulda been locked up i coulda been gunned down but i found my own way i ain't gonna stop now cause mama i made it and i hope i made you proud. 

 i ended the song and took off the head phones to see April sitting down clapping. I laughed. "What you think' i asked. "That was amazing you sing real good why didn't you want to be a singer" she asked with her eyebrows furrowed. I  shrugged life got in the way.