Afterlife

Chapter two: - Freckles -

IT WAS THIS SNOWY DAY as the death of my parents had drowned me into endless pain, as I was at the age of nineteen it broke me, as much as they done me bad as much as I missed them and still do. I was on my way to my special place where silence, takes the crown and grieve had made the Queen, Lighting a cigarette resting my restless mind and heart, wiping such painful memories. The flames inside me turning into burning smoke mixed with cold air when I was on my way to the town heading to my grandparent's house to lie in that bed for hours and hours till I fell asleep so my whole day was based on smoking and staring endlessly.

Once, as I drunk for the first time and it was as if my consciousness is so ugly to be lived in, my unconsciousness was full of honesty and truth. When I headed out of the bar, I felt that all of that grieve had overwhelmed me and I can recall that feeling of collapsing parts. As I made my way to the library with the intention of picking some books to read, at least to fill the emptiness in my daily life. When I was on my way out, I couldn't hold the feeling of being wanted and valued to someone as I saw all of these groups sitting together. I couldn't hold this feeling again and it was as if it is an invasion of all that darkness inside me, so I turned around to be completely out of rage so no one could see such a weak person I am. But, as I looked around again, there is that one girl as she was entering the library but still, I couldn't see the sadness in her as if she was an unending maze and so I did got lost in such beauty. I didn't know why wasn't she upset but her beauty had taken my breath, she had these green eyes as if it was spring hidden beneath them all along, that red hair as if it was flames of possession and those rosy cheeks as if she was blushing all along and indeed she had the beauty of a native American woman. I couldn't turn around but with that beauty and this darkness inside as if light and dark light had faced each other, I had no idea what to do. Right then I knew that who the hell will love sad people anyway! So I made it out and once I stepped out the front door, I leaned on that breaking wall and only a few drops of tears had flown on top of my cheeks as I was half awake from these few drinks I had for the first time but in the main time there was nobody out in the streets as it was extremely cold but I felt no cold as if the demons inside me were dancing around their bonfire. I had no strength to get up or to quit these tears as if I had already drowned deep into my sorrows, and only bends and mistakes come to my mind at that time, thinking if I had my father by my side and my mother to cry in her arms. But indeed I am lonely as that sun in the morning. So I brought " Death " in and lightened it to shine around, to sooth my heavy head. As I smoked these cigarettes to calm the hell down and not draw attention to myself as If I did not want people to know how I was grieving all along in intention of not having them in my life out of pity.

Here she is stepping out from the library, that beauty took my breath as if I saw her for the first time. Since I had these wide eyes and the hood I am wearing has already covered the same dying details of my face, she only stared at me as I looked back at her for less than a second but it felt like infinity.

- " Hello, " she said. but surely I did not even have the power to answer her back as I become dumb, completely on that marvelous voice of hers.

- " You smoke too much, you know one day that is going to kill you right? " She added with a smile drawn on that gorgeous face of hers, but right then I knew she pity me. Or why in the hell would she even be talking to me?

- " I don't die, I'm immortal. " As I answered her in a ridiculous way as we exchanged laughter.

- " Haha! Well we can't prevent death, but indeed we can make the memory of oneself immortal "

- " Wow! That's deep. Haha! Well, yes I am immortal in that way then. "

- " Can we go for a walk? " And as she laid that offer, I raised up my head as a baby had been offered a cookie, I could not resist such compassion.

- " Of course, it would my pleasure. " As I said back this I was so nervous not knowing even where to go and what to talk about when I'm with her, likely I have never talked to gods before.

- " Good, so... Do you need some help in getting up? "

- " No. Thank you I'm fine, I'll get up. So where are we going? "

- " Wait and see. "

See what! I didn't even care what to see, I don't even mind be taking to hell by her, actually, I'd be honored. As she wiped my mind and these moments we spent together walking down the streets and I was so sure that she knew I was crying and again I had that very negative though in my mind that she only talked to me out of pity, but the time she started telling me stories about her family and her life, I knew for sure she was into me but still such moments were unbelievable even to my own mind.

- " But! Indeed you did not tell me, where are we going? "

- " Wait and see. Actually! Now you can see "

See what! I saw nothing special, It was an early evening that time and we were on an old farm and the sun was fading, I admit it was a beautiful panorama back then but still nothing so special.

- " Fireflies. " She whispered.

- " Fireflies! Oh yes, fireflies I can see. "

Now, this is the unique part, there were these fireflies all around us as they shined beneath the sunset. However, once I laid my eyes on her... Now I believe in perfection as these beautiful creatures landed on her face with these freckles on her cheeks had brought back to life, with such smiles and soft laughter I wished I'd be able to witness such beauty every single day.

- " So what is your name? " I asked such question as I am now completely comfortable and open to her.

- " Oh, now you talk! Jasmine. " She answers with laughter and smiles.

- " Such a beautiful name Jasmine, as you are as beautiful as spring roses. " I laid these words out of compassion.

- " Thank you...! "

- " Adam, my name is Adam. "

- " So! Adam, want to tell me what happened back at the library? I caught you looking at me several times, but still, I could not know why were you so sad? "

So we stood there, in the middle of such breathtaking Vue, talking and exchanging smiles and I thought for a second why in the hell would she be interested in me! Then I knew that I might be handsome myself but it's just the depression I'm into makes me see less of myself. So the time has passed and it was nightfall so we hugged goodbyes.

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Such beautiful moments indeed, I had back in this exact same place I'm sitting in now drinking all alone.