wouldn't it be grand to take a pistol to the head Frerard one-shot

hey guys! I was listening to "the light behind your eyes" and I got this awesome yet sad Idea, so here ya' go

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Frank's POV 

I hold the gun to my head, it seems like such a weird sensation, knowing that with just a small pull of a trigger, I would be gone and the walls would be decorated red with my blood.

I don't even know why I'm hesitating, Maybe its because I'm hoping that Gerard will walk through that door holding two coffee's and a handful of new drawings to show me, but he won't Gerard's dead, he left me. he fucking left me.

Sometimes I hate Gerard, how could he be so god damn selfish?! He said in his note that he had no reason to live. 

"HE HAD ME!" I screeched out loud, tears falling down my cheeks and I let out sobs of pure and utter agony, not physical but emotional.

but other times, like now, I just miss him, I would give anything to be with him, even my own life.

Even if their isn't an afterlife then I would still want to die, a life without Gerard isn't a life at all. Its just an existence, I would just be a walking shell and I would much rather die, and know that my last thought in life was Gerard, his perfect lips, his hazel eyes, the way that he changes his hair so dramatically for no good reason and just the way he talks.

"I'm sick of seeing my face, but I'm allowed to be sick of seeing my face because its my fucking face" 

I smiled lightly at the memory and I looked over my suicide note that I had left for mikey, ray and bob.

hey guys, sorry about this but I need Gerard, don't be sad about me going. I'm happy this way.

stay, beautiful and keep it ugly 

-xofrnk

I know it was short and not as dramatic as most suicide notes but I couldn't bring myself to write an entire letter, it was too painful and I think a long note about all my sorrows would just make them more sad and I didn't want that, I Will be happy and they should be too.

Gerards POV (*GASP*) 

I screamed at the top of my lungs for him to stop, I tried to touch him and to knock the gun from his hand but my ghostly fingers went straight through it.

"FRANKIE BABY PLEASE!" I screeched begging him to stop. sure I missed him but I would never want him to die, I want him to get married and have kids and grown old and then when he dies naturally I can be with him. Its not my happiness that matters, its franks.

"I love you Gerard way" he whispered before BANG! he shot himself in the head, his brains covering the room, contrasting with the plain white walls.

I cried and sat by his body, waiting for his ghost, to rise.

It took 3 hours until finally his ghost sat up out of his body with a loud gasp and his eyes immediately set on me.

"G-gee?" He asked tears of joy starting to stream down him cheeks

"GEE!" he yelled and tackled me with a hug, me now being able to touch him (because he's a ghost too)

I giggled "I missed you too Frankie" 

"oh god Gerard!" He squealed pressing kisses all over my face

"I love you frankie" I said pressing his lips to his

" I love you too Gee"

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hey guys sorry that was sad at the start but It had a happy ending!

lots of love

Alice XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX