Hey guys I'm sorry I didn't continue the story I kinda just can't ive been going through some shit and its been really hard on me now don't get me wrong I'm trying to get my life together I mean I'm with this amazing guy but my parents wont accept him like at all he has helped me through some things and he even brings me to love my own body (I really hate myself and ya causes a lot of problems) somehow I never really felt this way about a guy I'm more into girls then anything if u know me irl and your a girl you know this I'm most likely flirting with you but he is the only boy I ever really liked I never felt happy with any other person except for one um she wont be named but ya my parents hate him...he is older by 3 to 4 and half years I really don't care tho my parents do I want to be able to hug him and cuddle up closely next to him we are a long distance relationship and I want to break the distance so does he and I might just be a idiot to believe that he might love me but I do...I really hope he isn't playing with my emotions I know he isn't I want to be with him so bad...
Dear that special guy:
You are never gonna see this. I'm grateful for that, I LOVE YOU, and sometimes it will seem like I don't cause i will get piss at you for the most littlest things for example when you do that adorable high noon stuff that may get annoying but it's adorable that I can't even begin everything you do makes my stomach flutter with butterflies when you say you love me to when you call me babes I can't help but dream of us being a family even tho it may never happen (I hope it does) I've told you about the dreams the dreams the nightmares the reason they are nightmares cause at the end of every happy thing it never comes true... so that day when you hold our child and I realize it's all true I will be the happiest women ever so to him I love you and I know you do too..
