Ballin For Your Heart

You're Beautiful To Me

It was so fucking cold, drunk teenagers everywhere, whores sucking dick in every corner, and the loners spaced out in their own world. All of this and the boys damn near dragged me to this party. I wanted to go home and snuggle with my pillows, reading a good ass book but no, I was here.   

As soon as we got out of the car everyone split up especially LaMelo, who jogged towards some white girl with dark, long brown hair and hazel eyes. I wasn't surprised. According to Melo, Bella and him had "chemistry" and he was starting to develop feelings for her which resolutely bruised mine.

"Want a drink?"

"What does it matter to you?" I intensely questioned him.

"Relax, I was just asking tight ass." Eli replied as he rolled his eyes and made himself a drink.

"Do you think they'll work out? I mean, like, do you think they are gonna make it official soon?"

"Where's all this coming from? I thought you guys were just friends?"

I took too long to reply before he screamed out, "Holy shit, you like Melo!"

I frantically quieted him looking around making sure no one heard him. Thankfully, the bass of "Gin and Juice" drowned Eli's loud ass out.

"Oh my God, Eli. Shut the fuck up. And for your information, yes, a little. You won't say anything will you? To anyone?"

"Scout's honor"

He winked and disappeared into the sea of sweaty, dancing teens. I wanted to dance and maybe throw it back for a scooby snack but I was nervous.

Usually, Melo and I dance together until a guy grabs my hips and I dance with him instead. Now, I was sure Bella and him were going to dance due to the sexual tension that radiated off of their encounter, tragic.

She kept rubbing up and down on his arms and poking him. He hates being poked. But now, he didn't care one bit. Hell, he was even poking her. She looked towards the dance floor and he took her hand and slowly they went towards the middle of the floor.

I could feel myself get more and more upset as he put his muscular arms around her back and pulled her close, the same thing he did to me at the BBQ. Redbone came on and I could no longer look.

Get it together, he's just a boy.
Yea, a boy you're madly crushing on.
He's my best friend.
That ship has sailed sweety. Go dance.

I grabbed Rich, one of the boys on the basketball team, and we went about ten feet away from the two lovebirds. Our movements were more sexual rather than romantic.

I could feel eyes on me but in that moment I could only focus on Rich's dancing skills. I felt liberated, free, and excessively joyous. This is what it feels to be in control I guess.

The sound of Redbone diminished and Rich let me know he had to leave.

"I had fun dancing with you Ky. Another time then?"

"Definitely."

LaMelo and Bella were still on the dancing floor talking and I started walking away until my favorite song came on, Magnolia. I can twerk, milly rock, or just two step to it which makes it just all around a good song.

All my guys, including Melo, had come around and we were in a big bunch just singing and dancing. Of course, hoes tried to dance on the guys and guys had tried to grab me. Yes one of the girls being Bella which meant that Melo had no problem breaking the group to yike with her.

My petty ass decided that I needed fun. That being said I told the guys that we would do something different. Everyone should get someone and dance with them. Me being the boss ass bitch I am had dudes lining up behind me, which had Melo weary.

I backed it up on this fine ass black boy and wasn't disappointed. He knew how to work and hold my hips which made me feel all warm inside. After we danced I couldn't see him anymore, guess he left.

All of the sudden, a random guy was being all types of rough. Grabbing me, slapping my ass, touching my stomach. I tried signaling the guys for help but no one really noticed but Melo. I was damn near calling him over to me with my eyes before he came over.

"Hey, I think that's enough. Ky you ok babe?" Melo asked before ripping the random's hands off me.

"Yea, I think I'll be fine."

He hesitantly nodded, replying, "Only if you're sure."

"Yup never been better."

He walked back over to Bella who was staring into my soul. She was pissed and hell maybe if I was in her shoes I would be too but I know I would never be in her shoes. LaMelo has never talked about liking a black girl and it was fine when I didn't like him but now that I do I was salty.

The night went on and it was still bumpin' around 1 am. Bella hasn't left Melo's side and now they're on a lazyboy talking. I want/deserve those talks, not her.

She got up and didn't come back. She clearly left.

"Alright y'all, last slow song of the night."

Get You by Daniel Caesar came on and I smiled knowing this is the song me and Melo listen to when we fall asleep on the phone together.

"C'mon, last dance before we leave."

LaMelo was towering over me waiting for me to go to the dance floor with him. We made it and held onto each other like long lost lovers. I have never felt so much love for someone like I did in that instance.

Melo was rubbing on my back and kissed my head. My head on his shoulder, my hands around his torso, and his hands on the small of my back. Blissful.

I looked into his brownish/green orbs and fell deep into them.

"You're so beautiful. A goddess even."

My head was so gassed that I was blushing until my whole head was red.

I didn't want this moment to end. If I snapped back into reality I would be disappointed.

I was here Melo and I probably always will.

Boy, you lead me to paradise...