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Lonely morning

Its warm and comfortable. I don't want to leave my bed for the outside world, especially when it's the first day of school. I don't even want to open my eyes even though I'm already awake. I want to try and trick my body into going back to sleep but it's nearly impossible with all the movement going on down stairs.

The sun starts to peek in trough my window blinds and onto my face. my eyes aren't open but I can still feel the sun burning my eyes and face. I give up and I give in, I open my eyes.

I got up from my bed and walked over to my mirror to see my reflection. Messy long jet black hair and sleepy blue eyes looked back at me. I need to brush my hair and get ready for the day. I also need to somehow sneak past my father this morning before going to school. I have to find a way to escape out the window without getting hurt by the two floor fall.

"Momoka! Wake up and come down stairs your going to be late!" shouted my older sister Yuna from behind my thankfully locked and closed door.

"I'm already awake! I'll be down in a bit and I don't care if I'm late!" I exclaimed back as I got my new high school uniform out of my closet.

"Whatever I don't care, Mother just asked me to tell your dumb ass to get out of bed and try to make some friends this year at school!" She yelled somewhat annoyed and mad, like always. Yuna's footsteps are the last thing that I hear before going back to getting ready for school. Her footsteps are like our relationship, they slowly go away over time.

I finished getting ready for school and headed downstairs for breakfast, also known as burned eggs and toast with a side of pills. I kinda feel like skipping breakfast today because it might not stay down long enough. After all it is the first day of school and my stress levels may not let me keep my food down. I also want to skip on the pills. I had my hand on the front door knob but was quickly stopped.

"Momoka! sweetie! where are you going so early without saying goodbye to your mother!?" My mother slurred her words as she made her way to me from the kitchen. She's drunk. Again. As this realization dawned on me she came near me almost falling, just to continue a conversation that I could have avoided if only I were quicker. Here I was being worried about seeing my father before heading to school when my really problem is my mother.

"Why are you leaving without eating? Don't you know that's bad for your health?" She said while finally reaching her way to me and slouching in front of me. Before starting up again with another slurred sentence she took a big sip of her wine bottle. Classy. Real classy mom.

"It's fine mom I'll eat at school, besides I'm kinda in a rush." I said as I unlocked the door and started opening it as if it were my gate way out of this conversation. It was to be honest. I just couldn't stand talking to my mother when she's like this. Hell! I can't stand talking to her when shes sober either. She's mean, rube and down right hurtful when she's sober. I think it's better to just plain ignore her.

"Ohhh... Okay darling. By the way before I forget... your father asked me to give you your medicine before you left." She paused mid sentence reaching in to the pocket of her almost fully opened robe, pulling out the pills.

"Thanks..." I say while looking at what so many people refer to as "the only reason why she's doing better now" It's not. I've changed on my own! What dose it matter, they won't believe me. Because I know they won't believe me I open the pill bottle and take two pills. While I swallow them down I notice my mother looking at me. She's thinking about it. About what happened, and the reason why I have to take these pills. I wish she would stop looking at me like that! She has pity and sadness in her eyes from that day... but it's her fault as well.

"Okay I have to go now... bye mom." I quickly put my backpack on and rushed out the door before she could get a word in edge wise. Don't get me wrong! I love my family, and I love my shity life. But.... there has to be more to life than just THIS. I'm deep in though on my way down the street and heading straight to school.

AUTHORS NOTES

sorry that thus chapter is kinda sad but I promise that only the family life is sad. School life is fun and wacky! Please wait for all the fun to happen! Bye love you all.