That Should Be Me | Aaron Carpenter

That Should Be Me (Aaron Fanfiction)

-: A Little Background :-

Being one of the sisters of Shawn Mendes, is tougher than you think. When I'm out being a normal person, fans come and ask me questions about him. They always ask me when he's going to put up a new cover, or where he lives. They are some crazy, but amazing bunch of fans.

But sometimes, they can be really tough on you. There was this one point, where I was getting hate. Hate for being Shawn's sister. I don't understand why I was the only one getting hate, Aaliyah wasn't getting any. They were all saying that I was a spoiled and bratty sister. Sometimes they would come up to me and say it.

The girls at school hated me so much for knowing Shawn. There was a certain point where I would get depressed. More than half of my friends from school left me. They didn't care anymore. They thought I had the luxury life since he's my brother. But only one friend stayed. That's Nadine.

Throughout this time, I developed a love for singing, just like my brother. I don't think he's ever heard me sing. I just hoped it stayed that way.

Sooner or later, Shawn was getting curious about me. He was always asking me if I was okay. I would always say yes, which made him more curious. He would ask me if I was sad because of him, since he was always leaving. I kept telling him no. But it was a partial lie. I did miss him, he was always my partner in crime. But I always completely understood why he had to go.

Then, the day finally came. It was the day Shawn knew I was depressed. By this time, I was cutting. Usually, when I was having a bad day at school, I would slide 5 cuts through my skin. It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulder, but it truly hurt.

He found out because one day, he saw me at school only with Nadine. Not with my other betrayed friends. When we got home, he asked me what happened to them. I just told them that they left, they didn't want me anymore. Then he started putting the pieces together. Just as I was about to leave, he grabbed me from my left wrist. I winced at the pain. I accidentally winced too loud. Shawn heard it. He was looking at my eyes. His eyes were starting to get watery. He lifted up my sleeve and saw 5 clean cuts. There were about 10 disappearing cuts.

At this point, his tears were flowing down his eyes like a waterfall. It pained me to see Shawn so hurt that I did this to myself.

"Why?" He had asked me.

"Because I wasn't cared. The only people who cared was the family and Nadine. Everyone either left me or hates me. Even your fans hate me. Have you not heard, I am the bratty spoiled sister of Shawn Mendes. They give me hate, every damn day. No one was there but Nadine. I had no courage to tell anyone but her." At this point I was crying. The words were just falling out of my mouth. Shawn was just there in pains and in shock. He was disappointed in himself.

"I feel like this is my fault that your in this position. I'm supposed to be the best brother, but really, I'm a crappy one. I'm so sorry I let this happen to you" his fingers were rubbing on my cuts.

"No, this is my fault. I should have told you earlier. You had the right to know. After all you're only older than me by nine months" I had said. He smiled. I wanted to see him smile.

"From this point on, I want us to promise, that we will tell each other our problems. I never want you to end up like this, again" he told me.

"I agree" I had replied.

"So, I wanted to ask you if you wanted to come with me to Magcon. We have new route, we are going to New Jersey in April. Which is like 2 months from now. I was hoping that we can get some special brother and sister time"

"Sure, but what if I don't fit in? What if I get hate from your fans?"

"Don't worry about that. I'll protect you through anything. I will make sure nothing bad will come to you"

"How many boys are going?"

"All of them. Which is 9 boys. They, will not be able to touch or hurt you."

"Okay, whatever you say boss"

With that he had left. I guess now, we are going to be closer than ever. The first month, my brother was being super protective of me. He had helped me become clean of my scars. Everyday we came home, he always checked up on me. Then he stopped after a while, he thought it was getting too annoying to me.

During school, I was starting to mingle with guys. I don't really know how it happened. They just came up to me. From there on, one boy kept talking to me. It was Chase. My brother saw this action. He would ask me at home, who's that guy, or what are you doing with him. I would always tell him, he's new, and he came up to me. Shawn would always tell me to be careful. I am 15, I think I know how to take care of myself, now.

After about 4 weeks of talking to Chase, he asked me out. He was the first guy to ever ask me out. Of course I said yes. We were both ecstatic. When Shawn found out, he furious.

"You're too young to date!"

"Well, were the same age. You've dating girls before."

"That's different."

"Different. Different!"

"I just don't want you getting hurt"

"Look Shawn, for the past month, you showed me how to protect and take care of myself. I know how to now. I will make sure he won't hurt me."

"Okay, but if he ever hurts your heart I swear I will break him into two. No one hurt my little sisters heart."

"You're only older than me by 9 months."

"Whatever!"

Now, it's only one week, till the Magcon tour for New Jersey, and I still haven't told Chase. I had decided that today, I had to tell Chase. Whether I was scared or not.

At school, I had only three classes with him. Gym, Math, and History. I decided to tell him during History, since that was the earliest. Once I had arrived, I took my usual seat. I waited for Chase to show up, it took him 5 minutes just to arrive.

"Hey!" I greeted him.

"Hey babe. I was looking for you" he replied with a kiss on the cheek.

"Sorry. I was here waiting for you. Anyways, I have to tell you something."

"What is it?" He sounded worried.

"I'm leaving somewhere with my brother for one week in April. I'm leaving this Friday. I won't be back till Saturday."

"Oh, I thought you were breaking up with me or something. If your just leaving, then I'll miss you."

"Thanks, I'll miss you. I'll bring you something."

With that, I started paying attention. I was glad I finally got that out of the way. Now all I have to do is survive Magcon with out any hurt. I just hope these guys don't hate me like everyone else does.