A Dream Adoption (Shisa Fanfic)

Chapter Six

WARNING: SELF HARM INCLUDED

(Most of this chapter will be in Taylor's POV)

~Taylor's POV~
"Taylor! Wake up!" Lisa shouted. "5 more minutes!" I shouted back. I shoved my face in a pillow, then heard my door open. I ignored it, wish I didn't... I heard a blowhorn right next to my ear. I screamed and fell out of bed. I heard Shanes laughter and I looked up. "Shane!" I shouted. He stopped and looked at me smiling. "Yes?" he asked. "Why did you do that?!" I asked. "Lisa told you to wake, and its 12pm" He said. I groaned and he left my room. I shut my door, and went to my closet. I picked out my clothes, and put them on. Then I did my hair. (Outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=117255167 ) I went downstairs and saw Lisa. "Hey, sorry for not waking. I just love sleep." I said. She smiled. "Its okay. Shane is like that." She said. "I CAN HEAR YOU!" He shouted from the living room. We laughed. "What would you like for lunch?" Lisa asked. "Can we chinese take-out?" I asked. "Sure. Shane and I can go and get it. WOuld you be fine by yourself?" She asked me. "I'll be fine. I got internet, tv, and a dog" I said with a smile. "Okay. Shane we're getting take-out. Your coming!" Lisa shoutes as she gets her purse. "Okay!" He shoutes back and walks in with his phone. "YOu'll be fine alone?" He asked. I nod. Lisa kisses my forehead, and so does Shane. "We'll be back soon." Shane says. "Okay. See ya!" I said as they walked out. I went to my room to get my laptop, and headed to the living room with Corny. I set down my laptop, and went to get myself an apple. I sat down, and turned on the tv. AS I took a bite out my apple, I turned on my laptop and went on YouTube. I went to check the video that Lisa, Shane, and I made yesterday. I watched it and smiled. Then I made a mistake... Reading the comments. Some were really nice and all that. Then some were fucking mean. (She is 13, turning 14. So she'll cuss once and awhile.) 'She's just like other fan. Probably begged them to adopt her' that's a lie. 'She looks so ugly and fat. Why adopt her?' Don't cry... 'She dserves to kill hrself. Ugly, fat, whore, slut, wannabe.' I felt tears streaming down my face as I read more and more. 'Just kill yourself. THey wouldn't care. They are just saying that to make you happy. Just realized what all of us are saying is true. Just go kill yourself or something so we don't need to see your ugly fatass self anymore.' Okay... That crossed the line. I shut my laptop and looked at my apple. I threw it away. 'I don't need it...' I thought. I walked to my bathroom. I shut the door, locking it from behind. I roamed through my items, and found a razor. Brand new, haven't been used. I started to pull up my sleeve and looked at the razor. I held it in my hand, and looked down at my left wrist. I thought and thought. If I do it, the fans would be happy. They would like go see me miserable... I slowly took the razor to my skin, and kept it there. Slowly, I made the razor go across my skin. I let the pain go through my body. Listening to Corny bark as I picked up the razor, and did it again and again. I looked down to see my cuts. Each one represent something... Ugly, fat, whore, slut, wannabe. 5 cuts. I would've done more if there were more things. I put my arm over the sink, and put the water on. I watched as the blood dripped off my wrist, into the sink being washed down by the running water. I turned off the water, and grabbed bandages and rubbing alcohol. I put some the rubbing alcohol on the cuts. "Ow" I said as it burned. I shaked as I put the bandages on. As I finished, I cleaned off the razor putting it away with everything else. I looked in the mirror, and wiped away my tears and took a deep breath in. I walked out my bathroom, into the living room. I opened up my laptop, and exit out the video. I sighed, and got off my laptop. I looked at the tv, and put on Harry Potter. I laid down, with Corny next to me, and fell asleep.

~Lisa's POV~
"Stupid, fucking traffic" Shane cursed. I laughed a bit. We were stuck in traffic, and it's been 20 minutes. We had the food, and Shane tried sneaking a bite. "I hate traffic" he pouts. "Shaney, it'll be okay" I said, soon we were out of the traffic. "THANK THE LORD!" He shouted. We laughed. "Now let's get home" I said, and drive. Shane vlogged a bit and said what happened. Soon we got to the house. Shane carries the food, as I carried my purse. "Taylor, we're home!" I shouted. I walked in the living room to see her asleep on the couch. I smiled and went to Shane. "She's asleep" I said. "Should I wake her?" Shane asked bringing out the blowhorn. "Noooo" I said pushing his hands down. "Nothing that can make her deaf" I said. He faked pouted. I laughed. I went over to Taylor and shook her a bit. "Taylor. Wake up." I said. She opened her eyes, and looked at me. "Hey kiddo" I said with a smile. She smiled back. "I smell food..." She says. I laugh. "Let's go eat" I say. She nods and we get up to eat.

~Taylor's POV~
As I was eating all I thought of was the hate. Fat... I stared at my food. Why am I eating this? Just going to make me more fat. "Taylor? Anything wrong?" Shane asked. "Hmm? Um no" I said. "Okay..." He says. I looked down at my food and ate more, regretting every bite. After I was down, I threw my trash away. "Shane and I are going to the office. Just go in there if you need anything" Lisa says. I nod and faked a smile. As they left to the office, I went straight to my bathroom. I locked the door, and went to the toilet. 'Just throw it up...' I thought. I stocked a finger down my throat and gagged. I started to feel a tear. I did it again, and it all came up. I threw up in the toilet, and flushed it after. I looked in the mirror, and wiped my mouth, and brushed my teeth. 'Better...' I thought. I left the bathroom, and went to my room. I sat on my bed, feeling the sting from my cuts. God it hurts. I looked at the time. It was only 2pm. I sighed. Time past by. I went to the living room, and watched tv.

~Shane's POV~
Lisa and I sat in our office on YouTube. I read some the comments and frowned. A lot of hate. It's just fucking stupid. "Shane... You seeing the comments?" Lisa ask. "Yea..." I say. She sighs. I walked towards Lisa and she she looks up at me. "Why would they do that...?" She asked. "Jealousy. Don't worry. Who cares what they think. I say we made a good choice, and we truest care" I said and kissed her soft lips. Lisa smiles and kisses back. "Fuck..." She says. "What?" I asked. "We have to enroll her in school soon..."she says. Shit... "Let's worry bout that later." I say. Lisa nods and we went to go check on Taylor. She ended up being asleep on the couch. I smiled. "Take her to her room?" I asked Lisa. "Yea" she says. I pick her up, and brought Taylor to her room. I laid her down and Corny ran in. I laughed lite and closed her door as I walked out. "I agree... We made the right choice" Lisa says and kisses me.

(Authors note::
Okay. I hated to make Taylor cut. I did cry a little when I typed it. But don't worry, it be okay. But as you wait for a new chapter check out my...

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