Do you know what it's like to wake up every morning wishing you didn't? Getting ready to impress people who are going to judge you regardless. Go through 6 hours of hell with people who you know secretly hate you.. Or so you feel. Everybody's better then you .. It don't matter how hard you try to fit in. You change your hair , your clothes and even how you talk . But it's still not good enough. Then you go home to a house where your told your not good enough . And you can do better even though your really trying your hardest .. But nobody sees that , they don't see Your trying your hardest not to take all the pills in the bathroom . To not just slit you wrist and throat and slowly wait for the shit life you where given to end. All you have on your shoulders is pressure to be the best . But maybe You don't want to be the best .. Maybe you just want to be happy. You cry yourself to sleep don't you? You hate the way your body looks ? Yep and you have tons of scars on your legs right ? A few on your arms ? Yep right again huh ? Each time more and more cuts ? your addicted to the feeling , the feeling of not being numb anymore , people say why do you do that . In all honesty you won't understand but it's a relief . A relief from the real world the fuck place they call reality . the shit hole they call life. But depression is like drowning you see everyone else swimming as you slowly sink to the bottom . Everyone's laughing as they watch you sink . There happy to see you failed. And maybe just maybe ill
finally be happy too .
