Journey down Lisa's mind

Letter to those concerned

To Whom It May Concern
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My First Love  Is A Woman
And If You Wondering 
I Am One Too. 

I Know You'll Probably Never Understand, But There Is Something So Real To Me About Waking Up To The Sound Of A Heartbeat Under Breasts Then Any Other Chest
There's Something So Special About Knowing 
That She Loves Me More Then Any Other Man Has Ever Tried To. 

And I Find So Much Certainty In The Pleasure That She Knows Exactly What I Need. 

Forgive Me But I Think I Might Struggle With This Poem
Because I Can Already Feel Eyes Judging Me
And Girls Wondering If I Was Checking Them Out
When I Was Only Greeting Them
But Am Gonna Carry On. 

I Probably Should Have Mentioned This A While Ago 
But I Don't Think Telling You I'm Inlove With A Woman Would Have Been An Appropriate Response When You Asked Me To Pass The Salt. 

I Don't Think Any Explanation Nor Justification Could Make This Any Easier
Because The Day Since I Chose Not To Have Dick In Me, 
I'm Reclassified Less Of A Woman. 

And Because I Kiss Girls
I Became A Target For Men With Overwhelming Insecurities 
And Right Now This Poem Will Be Used Against Me As My Admission Of Guilt To Those Waiting To Crucify My Soul Because Of My Sexuality, 
So You Tell Me
At What Point Did I Put Myself On The Cross????

Was It When I Held Her Hand For The First Time In Public And Found Eternity Between Our Palms??? 

Or Was It When We Came For The First Time At The Same Time Under Sheets, We Knew Were Probably Judging Us Along With The Curtains We Were Using To Hide Our Sins?? 

Or Was It The First Time She Had Her Tongue In Me And Right There I Knew She Only Spoke The Truth Because I Came 

I Came To Realise That It Was Love And It Still Is And It Will Always Be True
And The Truth Is,
With This Poem, I Write For Every Person Who Has Ever Lost Their Lives Because Of Who They Chose To Be. 

I Speak For The Women Who Are Robbed Their Vaginas Crowns By Men Who Felt The Need To Terrorise The Treasure Between Their Legs, 
Find Pleasure In Their Pain
Power In Their Screams
And Pride After Their Victory Dance Is Over 
The Puddles Of Tears
I Also Write For Those Who Kill
They Say "Forgive Them Father For They Do Not Know What They Doing" 
But I'm Sorry God, Please Forgive Me
But I Say Fuck it, They Know Exactly What They Doing.

They Killing Innocent People Because Once Again Their Uncircumcised Ego's Have Been Bruised And Ezi-Stabane Are threat to Society. 
They Raping Other Human Beings

Because They Different,
And Abnormal 
And Disgusting 
They Discriminating Against Their Own Flesh And Blood

Because Apparently God Never Wanted Us To Live Like This
But If You Have Never Met God Then How Would You Know What The Right Way To Live Is? 

So Let Me Ask Something
"What If The Wheels Were Turned And Being Heterosexual Was A Crime And You Could Be Punished For Holding A Man's Hand As A Girl And If Breaking Your Virginity With The Opposite Sex Was Illegal"????
What Then??? 
Would Things Still Be The Same???? 
I Think We Lost The Just Of Our Struggle A Long Time Ago.

I Don't Understand How Loving Someone Became A Felony
I Don't Think I'll Ever Be Able To Fed Them How Being Happy Became An Offence To People You Don't Even Know 

So To Whom It May Concern 
My First Love Is A Very Beautiful Woman 
And Incase You Still Wondering, 
I Am One Too
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Yours Sincerely 
ME

~N a l e d i  R a b a