As Long As You Love Me (A Connor Franta Fanfic)

Talking It Out

Connor's POV

I woke up feeling surprisingly energized. My body was still pretty weak though, so I tried not

to move much.

The door opened and in walked Trevor Moran.

"Hey Con..." he said slowly. "Hey Trev!" I smiled to the best of my ability.

"You remember me?" he asked confused. "Of course! How could I forget you? You're one of my best friends." I exclaimed making Trevor smile.

"Con.... Are you ok... Honestly?" he asked slowly.

"I'm fine!" I said.

"Connor.. Please don't lie to me." he said looking me straight in the eye. I sighed in defeat.

"Fine.. I have a gigantic headache, most of my body hurts, and I feel extremely weak."

"Oh Con... I'm sorry this happened to you.. If I could, I would switch spots with you in a heartbeat." he said as he hung his head down... He was crying.

"Trevor.. Please don't say that.. And please don't cry. It hurts so much when you guys cry over me.." I sighed.

"Well I can't help it. I hate seeing you in here with all these wires and cords all over you. You were hooked up to a machine because you couldn't breath on your own Connor.... If it weren't for that machine do you realize that you could've..." he choked out.

"Trevor.. I promise.. Im not going anywhere anytime soon. Yes I was depending on a machine for life. I know that, but the key word there is "was". I'm not now. I'm breathing all on my own now! I'm better. I'm not saying that I'm healed. I'm just saying that I'm better.... so much better." I looked up and noticed that he was crying harder now. He wasn't making a sound, but his tears were falling faster than before. "Promise me one thing Trevor.... Promise me that you'll believe me when I tell you that I'm better, and that you'll stop crying." He sat there, silent for a while. "Please?" I asked quietly.

"Ok.. But only if you promise me that you'll never get drunk and try to fight some crazy person with a broken bottle ever again." he chuckled.

"Deal!" I laughed.

"Ok well Kian and Sasha are still waiting to visit you so I think I better go before I use up all their time." he laughed ,standing up. "K. Bye Trev. Love you man!" I said as he walked towards the door. "Love you too!" he said back before leaving the room.

Before I could even think about me and Trevor's conversation, Kian bursted in the door and yelled, "CON DA BON!!! YOU'S OK!!! YAY!". He began jumping up and down clapping his hands.

"Kian! Please, lower your voice. My head hurts." I said rubbing my aching head. "Oops... Sorry." Kian whispered as he sat down.

"It's ok!" I laughed.

"Con.. You look horrible." he said slowly. "Gee thanks Kian! Good to know I can count on you to make me feel like a million bucks!" I said sarcastically. He laughed at me. " I'm not talking about your physical appearance. I mean you look like you've been hit by a bus, but that's not the point." He chuckled.

"I mean that you look like a whirlwind of emotions right now. You look sad.. You look mad... You look happy.. You look confused..But most of all you look tired...."

"You're right..." I sighed. "About everything. I'm sad because I don't like seeing you guys crying and upset over me. I hate to see my friends cry.. I'm mad.... at myself. I'm mad because it's my fault that you guys have to go through this pain. If it weren't for my stupidity, none of us would have to be here.... But I'm happy because I remembered all of you guys once I saw you or heard your voice. But I don't think I could ever forget you guys" I chuckled. "And not only am I physically tired, but I'm also tired of being here. Being cooped up in this room is driving me crazy."

"I bet it is." he laughed. He sat there a second. He looked as if he was processing everything I just told him. After a while, he spoke.

"Connor... Remember what you said to Jc? You told him that this wasn't his fault.. Well it's not yours either. You were drunk. We all do stupid things when we're drunk, I know I do. You can't possibly blame yourself for this. You can't help the fact that this happened.. It could've happened to anyone. So please... Don't beat yourself up about it. It isn't your fault." Kian said sadly.

"Since when did you become so smart?" I chuckled. "Eh, it comes and goes." he laughed.

"Hey. You never told me why you were confused.. " he said remembering the one thing I was hoping he wouldn't.

"Well I'm confused because.... This girl you all keep mentioning... Sasha I think... Who is she?" I asked slowly.

"Oh Con... You don't remember her?" he asked as his facial expression immediately changed.

"No.. I feel like I should.. I wish I could.. I've been trying my hardest to remember.... But I just can't.. Please tell me who she is.." I pleaded.

Kian picked up his chair and moved it closer to the bed and sighed.

"She's Ricky's friend that we met a few days ago. You honestly don't remember? She burned her hand and you bandaged it up for her and made us all go to the doctor with her, right before that party. You two were having a prank war and one of your pranks went horribly wrong.. I can't believe you don't remember." he said confused. "She likes you.. a lot. And from what I could tell, you liked her back."

"Wow... Wait, how do you know she likes me? You said we've only known her for a few days." I said, trying to figure all of this out.

"I can tell. It's no secret, when you watch how she looks at you and how you look at her. It's obvious that you two like each other. If you can't see it then you're basically blind." he chuckled.

"That obvious huh? Ugh.. I wanna remember her.. But I can't..." I said frustrated. "Hey, maybe you'll remember her once you see her like you did with us." he said, his voice full of hope. "I sure hope so." I sighed.

"Alright, Imma go get her then. Bye man. Love ya!" he smiled before walking to the door. "Love you too." I said as he opened it and walked out.

I feel like I should remember this girl.. All those things Kian said made her sound familiar. He said that we've only known each other a few days, but by the way he said we interacted makes us sound like we've been friends for years.

Just then the door opened, interrupting my thoughts. Please let me remember this girl....

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A/N

You guys are gonna hate me with all these cliff hangers. But that's the only good way I know of ending a chapter! I'm sowwie! 😔

Anywho! This is a pretty long chapter.. I'm not sure if I should make Connor remember Sasha or not.. What do you guys think?

Make Connor remember her right away.... *Clicks tongue* or nah? 😂😂

Sorry for any mistakes!

Other than that:

I LOVE ALL OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACES!! Goodbye 😘

~Ms. Marie💙