The Glory Of Love - Timmy Matley

Chapter 14

Millions of thoughts and emotions were going through my head. I knew I was doing wrong, I don't even know what I was thinking but I didn't pull away. Lance threw his arms around me and pulled me closer. As much as hated it. I loved it. He stood up grabbed my hand and lead me upstairs. I woke up the next day to an empty bed and no recollection of last night. I sat up wearing a t-shirt too big for me and last night's dress on the floor. Where was I? I walked towards the door and downstairs.

"Up then?" A voice said from the room to my left.

"Get dressed. We need to talk." I looked to my left to see Lance stood there holding my phone and passing it to me. I hesitantly took my phone to see 13 missed calls and 25 messages from Timmy. I shut the bedroom door behind me and sat on the bed as tears filled my eyes. I may have seen Timmy kiss someone. But that doesn't mean I can do what I think I have. I got dressed and made my wear downstairs not bothering to put any make up on. I sat on the sofa next to Lance. 

"About last night. I love you. But as a friend." He began.

"It was a drunken mistake" he said as tears fell down my cheek. 

"What about Timmy? His wasn't!" I said as Lance pulled me into a hug. 

"I'll drop you back off" Lance said grabbing my hand lifting me up and grabbing his car keys. 

"I know things are gonna be awkward for a while between us but I'm always here for you!" Lance said pulling up outside Timmy's house, I kissed his cheek before hesitantly getting out and knocking on the door. I smiled to myself as his face came round from behind the door. His bed hair and tired eyes always make me smile. He didn't say anything goes he just huggedme extremely tight. 

"We need to talk Timmy.." I said as I pulled away from the hug. He wiped the tears from my cheek before kissing it, grabbing my hand and pulling me inside.

"Look last night I...' I was saying before getting interrupted.

"I know, I know what you saw, it wasn't what you think... She's... Eurgh she's an ex... I've not seen her for years because she moved away from here and she wasn't looking where she was going in the club before and she spilt a drink down me, not knowing who I was at the time she offered me a drink we just got chatting then I said I had to go to find you... But she kissed me.. I'm so sorry [YN] you know I love you."

"How did you know I saw you?" I asked.

"I recognized Lance's car, then when it drove past me I saw you crying, it killed me inside I don't ever want to see you cry. I swear I'll never hurt you again." Timmy's eyes started to water. This was killing me. What have I done? He cares for me so much and this will destroy him, how can I tell him? My eyes started watering again.

"Timmy, I... I've got something to tell you." Tears streaming down my face

"[YN] what's wrong? What's happened? We're not breaking up are we?" Timmy said worrying.

"No I don't ever want to break up with you but you'll probably want to finish with me after what I'm going to tell you.."

"Oh no. No, this isn't what I think it is, is it?' Timmy stood up, his tears hitting my bare legs.

"Timmy, I'm so sorry" I tried reaching for his hand but he pulled away in anger.

"Who with? Please don't tell me it's Lance. Oh please, no, no, no, no!" he looked at me and he started to get angry, his beautiful face became red. What have I done? I hate myself.

"Timmy I'm sorry I didn't mean it. I love you. But when I saw you kissing that girl, I just didn't know what to do, we went back to his place and I couldn't stop crying, he comforted me and it just escalated. I woke up and wanted to run, wanted to get out, wanted to come back to you to be in your arms, my favourite place in the world."

Timmy suddenly stopped, he started to walk over to me and his arms wrapped around my shoulders.

"I'm sorry" Timmy said.

"I understand why it happened, I'm sorry for everything, can we start afresh?" he asked.

"Yes, yes of course we can, I just want everything to be back to normal. But how can you forgive me that easily?"

"When you love somebody that much you forgive them, you did what you did because of my actions and I'm sorry."

"But what about Lance?" I said looking at him.

"Don't worry about him, I'll talk to him everything will be alright" I rested my head on his shoulders. This is the place I want to be.