adult world. (harry styles)

Adult word

I don’t know how I got here. I mean I did get great grades in high school, I graduated as an English major in loss angels city collage, a stayed away from all the horny frat boys and all the crazy parties that were happening down the street from my dorm and the only friend I had was  Rose she was just as smart as me of course she was drop dead gorgeous in the first day I saw her in our dorm I though she was some kind of dumbass daddy’s little girl but she turned out to be pretty nice and smart of course she liked to party and loved the boys she never had any problem with them even with her big ‘hipster’ glasses bade her look good I had similar glasses and they just made me look like a dork, she was very outgoing and social everyone loved her I don’t even know why I was her best friend she said it was cause ‘ you are real and see me for who I am and not how everyone else sees me’ I still did not get it, she was that kind of girl that if she ate she would not get fat or if she drank all night she would not puke if she studied once she would just get good grades unlike me I had to study very hard for what I wanted I had to work extra hard for a decent body so I would not be ashamed to bear a bikini and I had to be very carful not to get distracted by boys, I managed to do all of that trough collage and after that…I still came back to my parents house cause I was broke still sending applications to publishing houses or magazines and my dream job at new York times but I guess anything would do right now because I know that once my writing career starts every publishing house and magazine would want me. But right now I’ll just stick to Waiting and looking for a small job in the mean while. I guess I should have just lived while I was young and go to those frat parties and enjoy maybe things would have been different… you never know then again I did go to one only cause rose begged me to and we had a week off so I didn’t really have to study, but that was the worse choice of my life. Once! I let myself go one time! And things go bad I guess I was just mend to stay and study and read and be unsocial, after that night that’s what I did for the rest of collage but now I regret it, I regret making my life boring and sad but now I have a new goal, a new list of things I want to achieve…I hope it starts soon cause I really don’t want to stay here with my parents listening to them blab about how they cant handle me living with them and giving me money sins this year my younger brother is going to collage I hope he does better than me.