-Chapter 1-
I breath in and breath out, it's just another day, another week, another month. I don't know why I'm feeling so uneasy, I just know that today is going to be a bad say, I can feel it. I get dressed for a typical day, going to school like always. I hate school so much, I just love the fact that I get to see my friends everyday, especially Tristan, my best friend since first grade. People always say that we're dating, truth is, I wish, but he has a girlfriend, which I don't like, just like she doesn't like me, and he's very happy, if he's happy, I'm happy. Tristan is like a brother to me, but sometimes I see him like something a little bit more, he obviously doesn't know, if he did I think it will ruin our precious and amazing friendship, if I loose him too, my life will be worth nothing. I also have Mia in my life, she's the go-to girl every time I have problems with my mom. My mom, -sigh-, I really don't know what to think about her. sometimes she's nice, sometimes she's not, and my dad?, he ran away when I was just 2- years- old, believe it or not I haven't seen him since then and sincerely I don't ever want to. I don't even remember his face, not even his name, pathetic huh? I sometimes feel like I want to know who he is, how tall is he?, do I look like him?, I guess I'll never know.
-As I walk down the hallway Tristan comes behind me and startled me_
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"
"Tristan! you scared the shit out of me! JESUS!"
"Sorry babe, didn't mean to, what you got there?"
"Just some home work I got from Music class yesterday"
"Uhh, Ariel the singer, the next Grammy winner, I like that"
" Shut up! you should learn some music too, maybe sing with me?"
"Nah, I think my soccer fulfills my life completely, besides, you're the best and I love watching you do your thing"
-Thing like this make my heart race so fast my hands start to shake, why is he so cute, handsome, perfect?
"You're such an idiot" - I say to Tristan, while I smirked and my face turned red-
"I'm serious! I cant wait to see you win a Grammy!"
"TRISTAN!"
-UGH! his girlfriend comes in between us, screaming Tristan's name.
"What are you doing here? aren't you supposed to be at practice?"
"OH, shit! I forgot, I'm so late! Coach Albert is going to kill me, I'll see you tomorrow Ariel"
-As he turns he kisses Lana on the lips and runs to the Gym, Lana looks at me, flips his hair and keeps walking-
"BITCH!" - I whisper-
UGH!, I get home and my mom is drunk again, just when I though my day couldn't get worst, she's crying again, crying over my dad and her miserable life, yeah, she's not the only one miserable in this fucking house, I just can't wait to leave. My graduation is in a year, and I got my life all planned out, I'm moving from this miserable city to the Big Apple, New York, I already applied to many colleges and I got accepted in all of them, I guess busting my ass of this past couple of years in school really paid off.
"What is all that noise?!" - I scream in my head, thinking-
"Oh, right my mom" -She was so drunk she started throwing glass at the walls-
"I hope the neighbors don't call the police, again'
"WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?! WHAT DID SHE HAD THAT I DIDN'T" - My mom screams as she keeps throwing stuff-
I really don't even know what happened between my mom and my dad all I know is that my mom got such a bad depression since he left, she hasn't even been on a date since he left us. She really is something, I think she hates me, maybe I remind her of my dad? maybe I do look like him because my mom can't even look at me in the eyes without getting mad. When I was young I used to pray every night that God would give me another mom, a better one, a one that didn't hate me and would just hold me like the other mom's do to their daughters. I seriously just can't wait to leave.
-Police sirens start to sound-
"Here we go again" - I say to myself-
-I close myself in my room as they take my mom to jail, again. I call my aunt so she can take care of it-
"She really doesn't care about me" - I say to myself-
"If the police find me here they would take me to a foster home, to be honest I seriously don't know what is worst anymore"
-My phone rings, is my aunt, she took care of the situation with my mom but wanted to talk to be about her-
"Ariel, I think we need to take another step in this situation, I can't let you go to a foster home and ruin your dreams of school in New York" -My aunt tells me through the phone"
"So what do you suggest aunt Becky?" - I asked her somewhat nervous-
"I think is time to call your father"
I froze, it's like time stopped for five seconds and I couldn't breath. "hellooo, HELLO, Ariel, are you there?"
As I fight to find the words to say I take a deep breath in and say "Don't you dare do that, I'd rather die before speaking to that man" - I say to aunt Becky-
"Ariel aren't you even curious about getting to know your dad?" -aunt Becky asks-
"why would I? He abandoned me and my mom and thanks to him, my mom is sick" -I say with and angry, deep voice-
"I have your dad's number, do you want it just in case you need him?"
"I never needed him in the past 15 years why would I need him now" -Angry I end the call and throw the phone to the bed-
"why does aunt Becky has that man's number?" -I asked myself-
"forget it Ariel, he never even looked or you why would you look for him?' - I tell myself in reassurance-
I go to take a bath and take the anger off my body.
"That bath is just what I needed" - I say to myself with a smile on my face-
My phone rings, it's a text -You got a text from aunt Becky-, read on my phone screen, I hesitate to open it but after dressing myself I opened the text.
-I know you're angry right now, but I want I want you to know that I love you, more than you will ever know, that's why searched for your dad and talked to him, he said he is willing to start a new life with you, I just want you to be happy, and since your mom is not happy, you can't be happy either, please just think about it-
With the text she attached my dad's number, so angry I just close my phone and sit in my computer to start my homework. After hours of doing homework I was so ready for bed, my eyes were closing b themselves, my mom went home with aunt Becky so I was alone at my house, alone with my thoughts. I go to bed and surprisingly I can't sleep, I just start thinking of what I should do? Should I just leave Front Royal, VA and run away to New York?, should I just stay here with my mom?, Should I call my dad? I hesitate so much to answer that question.
-Not Even thinking about it I take my phone and open aunt Becky's text and dial my dad's number, I breath in and breath out-
"Please don't answer, please just don't answer" - I whisper to myself over and over again-
After 5 rings I take the phone off my ear, I don't even want to hear his voice, I hate even just the thought of it. Without think I pick the phone again and hear a very deep and manly voice saying;
"Hello"
