See You In The Battlefield - Naegiri

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That moment,that moment everything change, although, I was always broken, I can't remember the days I was fine, like a normal kid, perhaps I was to young to remember, or perhaps it never happened. perhaps I always was broken.
but that moment, I learned that I musn't trust anyone, anymore.
the pain in my left hand, her tears in my right one, her deep breathing in my ears, and the blood that keep coming out from her teenage body, she was dying, she was struggling to live, she was struggling to choke out her final words.
it was my fault, it was my mistake with my tiny hands, which are a reminder of that moment, which are a reminder of  lesson, that I'll never forget."Don't trust anyone, for the sake of you and the sake of others."

ever since, my last year of middle school, I was lonely, I didn't talk with anyone, I had that facade in my face, a facade of a strong girl, a girl who doesn't seem to care of people. a facade that kept hidden who I am, a terrified girl who wants to keep everyone safe from who she truly is, the guilt made me like this for the sake of others. the facade became me, when was the last time I felt human emotion? happiness, joy, anger, fear, sadness, everything became that emptiness.
high school came, for her sake I worked really hard to be one of the best detectives. I became the ultimate detective and I got to that school, however: I hope I could see him, my father, I hope I could talk to him, or at least see how he's doing, he probably doesn't care about me, after all: he abandoned me in such a young age.  who would believe that high school would be so different, that I could actually see a problem, or to start feeling something, Just because of the reason I saw her.

of course he wasn't her, she's dead, but he looked like her physically, his green eyes and light brown messy hair was simillar to her, too simillar, his personality didn't seemed like her though, he seemed shy and kind, naiveand foolishy open, or perhaps I was foolishly close. He greeted everyone, introducing himself, so he did the same to me of course, shyly he told his name and he introduce his talent, ultimate luck huh? sounds normal, she wasn't normal, and she seemed to have goals in life and she was a detective, however I didn't know him, judging someone from his cover is something that I cannot do. coldly I told him who I am, which means I told him my name, my talent I decided to keep for myself for now. although he was normal, he brought me a strange feeling, warm feeling in my body, was it happiness, joy, perhaps disgust? examining it and talking with the other something logic and I would probably would do it, but I felt scared, I can't what if I'll get close? what if I lose control? he looked to much like her, and perhaps his personality would be like her too. I sighed slightly so nobody would hear, if I could I would step away from it as much as possible, but like said, I couldn't, and it's not because of me, he was interested in me, well I wouldn't blame him, everyone was. but for him to actually try and talk with me? it doesn't normal, however it would give me that warm feeling again. 

it was lunch break, everyone sat together so of course I sat along, fitting in is not my thing. being alone is the life I chose, he came to me, looked at me in a shy look. "Mind if I sit next to you?" he asked, I nodded, I don't mind, it's not that we'll become friends just by sitting together at lunch, and probably in few days he'll find friends and sit with them, right? we were eating in silence, until he open called my name, "Umm... Kyo-ko correct?" I nodded. "What is it?" I asked.
"I'm not quite sure if that's okay to ask but-"
"If that's not okay for you, why are you asking?" I cut him off, he didn't make sense. he smiled nervously. "I'm just curious but I don't want to hurt you-"
I sighed, "If you don't want to hurt me, don't ask." I know it was a little harsh but that's what I thought, that's the logic thing. "R-Right I'm sorry" he looked a little nervous, well... perhaps I should be less harsh, or to apologize, but the words failed to choke out. instead I continue to eat quietly. that's why I prefer to be a loner wolf, I won't hurt anyone.
when he finished his lunch he stand up and walked away, I simply looked at him,feeling a slight pain in my chest, I won't see him again probably, well I was wrong, I'm glad that I was wrong.

the day passed by, it was a boring first day, I stood up after I picked up my things, ready to walk home, he was standing up after me, although he walked with his friend, I think her name was Sayaka, they came from the same middle school it seemed, I continued to walk my way forward, pretending I didn't notice, they came to me though, it took me off guard that they asked me to go home with them, I nodded, it's not that we'll become friends because of that action, nevertheless he probably hated me, although there's a possibility it gave him more determination to be my friend? we walked home together, they talked and I listened quietly, I felt that warm feeling again, perhaps it's love? but how could I love him, we just met, that thought made me more scared, I was aware that there's a chance we might get closer, I hoped he'll forget about me and go to his other friend, but part of me wanted it to stay the same. I was so happy that I got home, when I got home my brain worked more hours analysing what happened today. which made me more confused. other than a detective I'm a teenager too.

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I know it a terrible start ; m ;
I hope you like it anyways, I had fun writing it and I hope I could write more from that story T u T
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